more tales from the Planck Barrier .....

(from a recent letter, now in parallel universe with everyone else's mail on old server)

Stopped writing for a long time. Always kept a journal, during art school, late '70's BFA 80 Sculpture, most of my drawing were filled with writing, my thesis show was called Eccentric Geometry, used tree saplings skinned to line, dotted lines (theoretical boundaries).
I moved to NYC in '82. Still kept journaling, have a million (or thirty) black books. Beginning in '84, started getting more specific messages in dreamspace, stories that began in sleep that the investigation spilled into waking, definitely Higher plane messages. The first was Latter Day Saints, a visitation by St. Catherine to a "new age" convention. It was finished in Houston Hobby airport going ot my grandmother, Grace's funeral ( As I write this, I just remembered something- The character that was born at that time was named Sophia, 'Phia for short, this story was her first brush with Grace, later stories came to me over the next few years, each one impulsed from dreamspace spilling with rapid-fire synchronicity into waking... more later on this).
Okay now we are where is started writing last night...........oh yeah, what started the previous rambling was that I did 'Phia's chart once, Cap sun, Aq rising and leo moon. don't know why.....

In the late '80'sin NYC, my son's father had sued me for custody,he is a talented but extremely elitist jazz/ world composer, we had met at the onset of the rapid -fire changes that I'm going through now,we knew we had a karmic history, chose to have a child, he is an amazing 21yr old Aquarian named SQ aka Ariel, He is powerful, but doesn't know it yet, he experienced the Convergence as an 18th month old dancing in the middle of a circle of 1000's. anyway I digress,as usual.

My writing had moved into short story form, from ideas generated in dreamspace,( more on this later) but I always believed that as an artist one MUST use their talents for the world's best and not this artist in a garret nonsense, or work so obscurely esoteric that people couldn't read it even with their soul's eye. So for those reasons we parted. He was involved with a woman who had been our sitter- no not the blond bimbo type, but she was another link in this Karmic- MY karmic history, They sued me for custody as I worked in film and they saw lots of money to make THEIR art out of mine. Randi battled me for the right to be my son's mother. I have always chosen my steps from my higher self, even if others did not see the benefit, or saw how that choice could cause me pain or harm. What ensued was eventually a battle of archetypes The Mother and The Father. I was told that I needed to write "The Solomon Child" on these experiences and although it was horrific and like living in the Twilight Zone I persisted through love and not anger, realized that although I might lose my son, I knew he would not be lost to me for all time,so I let go of attachment, his father, Patrick and his paramour, Randi, did everything in their power to erase and supplant me, including having their own child. That was the end for them, the Powers That Be saw my struggle as an individual, who loved, yet would sacrifice the ME for my son, and that THEY would manipulated a system of law and create another life a part of that manipulation lost the "battle" . Our struggles,SQ's and mine did not end there, but those are also stories for another day.

Back to the memory, now that the characters are introduced. I was impulsed to go to lightworkers days before the Solstice, I believe that I began connecting in earnest with my soul family, I saw a clan council meeting in dreamspace(i have always had regression dreams Saturn in the 12th opp my sun in taur)I knew it was a time when our world was falling apart, the Romans were trying to eradicate our world, my beloved oaks, my family, Randi and I argued before the council on how to fight this, we each had sons, leaders in their own rights, but we had magic. We were before a large fire in impassioned argument. She wanted to work energy to our enemies end use it for destructive means, I could not let what was our highest means be debased by falling to the Romans level, I knew it would be OUR ultimate destruction...I'm not sure of the outcome, but I believe I ended up in Kildare at Brigid's abbey and served the old ways under the guise of Christianity. I still believe in this life, as I think in many of my others, many ways, many mountains, only one path. (or how I became Brigidsdaughter) ....please tell of your journey, where your travels in this world of soul have taken you, now that we have reunited at a time we must not be afraid....to play.

Blessed Be,
Toni