Question your own BULLSHIT :)

Truth, personal truth, is so variable.

I write this on a day, like i’ve had before.

This day, today, i feel disillusioned.

I feel that the truth is not out there to be found.

Only my fundamental truth can be found inside.

And it takes radical honesty to know what that truth is…

The thing is… when i look outside at my world, i don’t know what to believe.

There are many different experiences, many people with different points of view, many ways of looking at things.

I’ve always believed the real truth would contain fundamental constants that exist in everyones reality.

And really, when it comes down to it, this theorem leaves us with one constant.

I AM.

We exist.

I have an inquisitive mind. I like to explore things, and understand the truth behind them. Since i was little, i’ve always asked WHY?

It’s been a never ending search for universal truth, a quest to understand the underlying structure, and a personal passion to become one with all, via intellect.

But right now it’s a quest that seems fruitless and without resolution

My truth is this -

I see a lot in spiritual circles, in the people that attend them, and the beliefs they express that is largely inconsistent. I’ve met more psychologically healthy people in real, everyday life then i ever have in the spiritual communities.

This sounds critical. It is. It comes from love.

My love is for people to be grounded, and to live their life. To get out into the world and to be who they are, but also, to have some personal integrity. This is my wish for myself, and for everyone else also. Why is this? Because i have compromised my truth countless times to allow someone else to be. Because i have not spoken my mind because what i hear from someone else's mouth is absolute bullshit. I don’t like conflict, so i tend to stay away from people who i sense are ‘not speaking any sense’. Because often when i speak my mind, i am cut-off, understated, or told straight out that i am wrong, and then anger is directed towards me. All for speaking my truth.

It’s a challenging time.

I believe the people in the world, in all circles, are holding tightly onto their views, regardless of the obvious reality which sits right in front of them.

I know i’ve done this, and i know others do it too.

Just because i am aware of this, does not make me any better or worse off!

But it’s come to the point where i must allow my points of view to be heard, within my own mind. And to do this, i must render some other views as unharmonious with my own. And be OK with that.

New age has become, for some (not all), a personal hedonistic paradise for lost souls who have lost their way. In the same way Mr Average Joe who enjoys his BBQ’s and beer might go and and buy a new plasma TV to feel better and enjoy his life some more, Ms Spiritual Jane might go and read a few books, hang out with some like-minded others, and take on a new persona. Suddenly, they are a Goddess, who has lived in ancient times, been some powerful queen from Atlantis, who originally was from star system X, a place of divine beings whom still watch over us.

Bingo! New personality - non eed to resolve the original conflicts, just create a new one.

The truth is, this search for happiness via materialism render the same result as the quest for the spiritual ego.

We all come back to our original issues, the ones we don’t want to face. Different times, different people, different circumstances. But there they are, again, right in front of us, waiting to seen, felt, and accepted.

So what to do?

Well, in short, challenge your own BULLSHIT. Question what you believe. Look at what you say about yourself. Understand your underlying motivations for doing something. Is it really love? is it really unconditional?

We are all sooo lucky to be humans. We don’t need to be anything more then who we are. We EXIST. Do you know how incredible that is? Look beyond the mundane to the beauty that surrounds us. We are on a LIVING planet, orbiting a LIVING sun at just the right distance so we are nice and warm, alive and well, breathing…

What is your earthly origin? Where does your family come from? How was your existence in THIS LIFE? if you look you’ll find a lot of magic and wonder, and the very best part of it is that IT’S REAL and it happened to you.

Welcome to your life, right here, right now.

I’ve made a pact to question everything, and to test my truth.

I hope this helps you see yours…

A.