The Battle of Ego

Today could have been a beautiful day but I spent the day arguing with my ego. It persecuted me,it told me that actions that I had done in love was done by itself, it caused me to doubt my higher self and I, in listening to it allowed it to steal the joy that was RIGHTFULLY mine. My ego has been with me and the most dominate part of me for more of my life than I care to give it credit for. It doesn't like being stilled, put on the back burner or shut out. But thankfully every day I am learning to quiet it, disregard it and hopefully put it eternally to rest!

Often, when thinking about the ego I think of it as something that causes me to boast about self or pat myself on the back, the phrase "stroking ones ego" comes to mind. But that is only one side of the ego. It can be a master at causing self-doubt, doubting love, telling you that you are worthless, it can also tell you that the truth you live by is a figment of your own imagination. But I think one of the most damaging of it's traits is when it tells you how others see you. Because of it's ability, it is so important to be centered and continually seek guidance from your higher self, your guides and spiritual allies.

My spiritual growth over the years has always been in spurts. I would learn a truth and than spend much time and sometimes even years incorporating it into my life. Not so this last year. Sometimes I feel like I'm all over the board tying to take in as much as I can in order to be only serving my higher purpose. And I think this is why my ego is able to cast doubt on the path I have chosen to journey on. Now more than ever I realize that it is most important to seek stillness, to remember to start my day out surrounding myself in white light and asking my higher self to take the lead and to remember that I AM Love and in Love there is no room for ego!
Namaste'