Been feeling so out of it lately, not myself

You may have noticed that I haven't been posting much lately. I have been in such a funk. I haven't been going to acupuncture or my vibe therapy for a while. Just feel so bummed out lately. Like something is going to happen, well already happening and I just worry that people won't wake up until it's too late. I feel like the end/new beginning is coming and I think about it a lot. It started to consume me and I worried about what would happen to this earth. I worry that most will not make it. I worry about my family. I guess worry equals fear. If we don't make it I will be okay to pass on to another place with my family although it makes me sad. I have so much hope for a new world, yet my faith in this world is diminishing. I was so thrilled to find my spiritual path and in these last few weeks I just feel like it is slowly leaving me. I feel so disgusted with the world we have created. It seems like everything I read is very negative. I know that it's up to me to choose to keep the light, but it has been very difficult lately. So, today I have posted a few things and I will continue to force myself to live in light, though it is a challenge. Then I think that maybe the feelings I am having are just ascension symptoms. I don't know. EarthDance is coming up in three weeks and I know that I need to be there. I just feel like it will bring me out of this depression by being around all that love. Anyway, I'm getting back on the horse and carrying on.