Disconnection, Friendships, and Twin Flames

I have to be honest here.

People really puzzle me.

I have experienced many friendships in this lifetime. I have come close and intimate with some very special souls. But what i don't understand, in myself and others, is why we disconnect from each other.

It seems to have a pattern - make friends or connections, they become closer. I can feel it within myself. Then, from out of nowhere, that connection starts to falter. It weakens. Suddenly, the amazing connection is gone. Without warning.

It hurts!

I have encountered many 'love' or 'intimate' relationships where, after i have fully opened up to someone, they run away. It's as if they cannot handle that amount of love. But for me, thats who i am. I express and give out freely.

More and more, these days, i find my challenge is having others recieve what i naturally radiate. I am happy, i like to be fun, and silly, i'm cheeky and like to flirt a little. All in the name of joy, and exploring new connections. What i find thou, which i find difficult, is that many are not interested. They think i am playing into something, have some adjenda, and really don't seem interested in sharing what i'm expressing.

It's as if they feel they'll lose themselves, if they open up to me.

I really don't get it.

All i want is for everyone to have fun and be happy. And to be a part of that...

Puzzled...

A.