My Higher Self Helps me with my Mood (Sunday, 8/19/07)

(my real name is Annie)

Sunday August 19 2007 My Higher Self Helps me with my Mood

“Communicated by my Higher Self”

Annie woke up so irritated this morning, something she never does -- her usual biggest problem when waking up is thinking “O No another day! I don’t want it!” -- her lack of enthusiasm about what the day will offer -- the impression it will be a monotonous day she will drag herself thru -- actually this is symptom of boredom. And usually when she starts her day she does find things to interest her and keep her going.

Waking up irritated is new to her, because it is feeling that things are wrong rather than right, little things are wrong. She had woken up in the middle of the night, and went to make herself a snack. And discovered she had nothing to put on bread. And she got so frustrated, because she had just done 3 shoppings in a row, 3 major shoppings, and she thought “I bought a lot of frozen dinners, and a lot of desserts, but where was my mind, I didn’t even buy cheese!” She had thought she had cheese in the frig, but she couldn’t find it in middle of night. So she got frustrated and down on herself. She started to buzz like an irritated bee.

Finally she turned on an old movie to calm down and watch, and fell back asleep. But before she turned on the movie to escape from her mind, she had started to think of the various activities she was involved with, and began to come up with ideas about what to do. And I said "stop!"

I know she has been working hard on her activity projects and enjoying doing them, but I could see, even tho Annie couldn’t, that it was no accident she was up in the middle of the night buzzing irritatedly about the "poor shopping job". We don’t know that it was such a poor shopping job. Annie is convinced of it but I am not. What she did was do smaller shopping jobs than usual, when she buys out the store. But it just was not a time for huge shopping. The weather in Tucson is extremely oppressive now, it is very hard to keep spirits up. Sometimes it is just not a time for an overwhelming grocery shopping job. Which involves too much work to transport the heavy bags into the house and put it all away. It was easier on her husband, who does the labor of transporting the bags, and on Annie who usually puts it away, that it was light shopping. They needed this break!!

And she will calm down when she realizes that. As for why I want her to stop her activities today, it is just one day, is because sometimes you have a day when the gears don’t mesh right. And that is a day when it is best to do nothing, to withdraw. There is a natural rhythm between contract and expanding. For the past week all her activities had been expanding. But now is the time to contract, so fresh direction can open up. It is like putting a car in idle. I know we are still in an intense huge energetic time, but still the mind loves its natural rhythms of fresh ideas, activity, contract; fresh ideas, activity, contract.

And for her to want to keep going with activities, just because the momentum is there for it, and the habit is there now for it, is wrong for her at this very moment. I know it all got played out with the grocery shopping. She came home with far less bags. For first time ever, she only bought the things she had intended to buy when she walked into the store. But darling, this is a time to streamline a little. There has been too much of trying to be housekeeper par excellence. Of having overflowing pantry. Can't we bring everything to a halt for a little while. And give some new things an opportunity to emerge.

All my love to all of you, Annie’s Higher Self