What turned the Energy to be so strong and blunt.

okay it has been suggested that I write about what is happening to me. I used to write in a journal entry channelled messages and that book got stolen from me. I was in a relationship when I started asking for someone to help me understand my energy by teaching her. The problem came up with the fact that she also was looking for a relationship. We I think I worded the wish properly this time and now have a person who just wants a little help with understanding energy but not looking for the answer in a book. Okay now on to the guidance part.

For the last two weeks I have lost my pass key at work. I found it once and then lost all of them again. Seem to be struck with a bit of bad luck. On the weekend I made the mistake of driving down a long stretch of road when I was tired instead of taking a way that required me to turn alot meaning I would have not be zoned out by the side of the road.

I now walk out and in a place where there is EMF and I am overly affected by it. I get hyper or I get sore fingers meaning that I am getting more and more sensitive to the energy around me. I am in a career where computers are my life I work in information security. What I want to do is get a career doing metaphysical healing or similar with massage therapy but I do not have the money to take a course doing that. Everyone talks about doing spells and stuff I am a person who is taught by guides and nto books as everytime I want to read a book I got told to goto sleep and then woke up and felt that oh I did not need to read that. I have my 2nd level reiki offically but I also have the gift to take the energy from a crystal and bring it into my self and use the energy of the crystal in others.

EG - Amethyst helps heal. I can hold a amethyst and overload a person with healing. I am able to heal the children being born now that have the energy of Above crystal yet can not do reiki healing on people who are older. That have not woken up. Right now from impression I get the concept that I am at the age of 31 what the kids being born today are at. I have the arrogance and the concept of I can not believe you are so stupid now get out of my face before I treat you like the stupid human you are. I am randomly channelling something that is helpful and while reading the book on thor about atlantis the Emerald Tablets or something I felt that okay oh that is what i was put here to be. Is anyone out there a high level physic intuitive that has access to the book of eternal knowledge and can verify who I am. I met a person 2 years ago that could answer that question and what I go is that I am the high gaurdian of the realm of dreams and faery beings and that people who also are fairie gaurdians will come to me. Well the last person who felt that I have to talk to you litterly ran for the hills and said that I creeped her out and that all the emails from me stressed her out and she got pain in her back. What is messing up my life is the world just spinning around me and I am being raised higher and higher or is there something out there messing with my life causing things to happen.