Spiritual development, perhaps my confusion
Having followed my own spiritual path now, I have seen many unique changes in life. I have gone through many things I would not normally recommend to any soul living on this planet. But yet, I am thankful for some of the everyday blessings and gifts that I am experiencing everyday, and clearly, life seems a lot more pleasant these days. I have however been a little bit off the track between the heaps of information that ive been reading around the site, and my own intuitive integrity. Perhaps someone can better "enlighten" me on such regards, as I never really considered myself an intellectual on such matters.
Ive been hearing and reading all this stuff about 2012 (and really, I would not have known more about it until i actual came to this site.) I am a believer of what is natural, and what will come, will come. I have also been hearing and reading much about ascension, which in the past months, have been something in which I took the time to learn more about. As I have posted on the subject line, I am quite confused with the information presented to me. Not so much about the information of what is to come, but of all the heaps of intellectual ideas that us human beings are discussing to deal about it. So far, as I have read so far, it seems that 2012 is considered by most of us as either a time of ultimate doom, or a time of transition in which we as human beings rise to another realm. Please correct me if I am wrong about this. I believe in the overall ascension process, in which eventually our spiritual developments will grant us that bit of a harmonic reality in which everything is right. I also believe in the ultimate will of god the source.
What has been confusing me the most, and which somewhat seems disturbing, is all this talk about "we should do this", "we should follow this path", and more recently, the activation of DNA. I admit in full that I am not intellectually aware of what this is all about, but something deep inside me tells me theres something not totally right about this picture. I have read a site where it said it was important for us to activate our DNA otherwise we would not transition through the singularity of "infinate change" that is to happen around 2012! Im a believer of what happens, will happen, as the will of the universe. I am not god, because i am not perfect. For all I am concerned, if I am to die this life, I would just return to the source or wherever nature takes me, for at that point I really couldnt complain. Heck, ive been told that this is my last incarnation as a human person, and really, im not sure whether to believe it, I can only accept what is to come. But such ideas as activating DNA, doing this and that, doing sacred meditations, for some reason, deep inside it feels more of a human drug to counteract fear. Its like a short cut, a bridge, despite the fact that nature acts as nature wills. I mean, it may just be me, whereas it may be the path of others, but I often times wonder if I am just off the "fast track" in not resonating with these things.
So, my dear lightworkers, can someone fill me in on what is going on really? I have in the past little while been following what my instincts and my soul has drawn out for me, it has helped me out of a hole many time. I am not biased, and if I am, I will try not to be, on any ideas presented on this website. But if anyone has any insight on what i am missing, I would be happy to hear it out.
Thanks and Blessings,
Windward