Out of Jail

Something has snapped. Watching Paris Hilton's experiences made me realize how I is We and in reverse so as well. We all moving through turmoil, imprisonment, release and now dealing with it. She looks like an angel and in the days I believed there were such beings I would have said I believe she is a human angel. She is having deep experiences just like our own....reading thru posts here on the site is ample proof.... but she is doing it publicly, how amazing is that. A huge and beautiful mirror for everyone. I no longer believe in the entity of angels except that it is something the fabulous human collective mind has been able to create, to show ourselves to ourselves because we were still unable to realize we really are that magnificent. Same for all entities, and God, and whatever we came up with to prove to ourselves help was out there and there was somewhere we could connect to that would truly support our search for our true selves. Certainly there was little of that in the real world. Well, it is of no matter except that it seems so awesome that we are created with a mind capable of such orchestrations. I had so many visions from Jesus himself, I was told of past incarnations for myself and they were as real to me at the time, as my bathtub and car were. But I knew also, they were not real, it was not that way and I also knew all the others who were Jesus' special girlfriend and who claimed to be reincarnations of the very same beings I was told of, were as correct and sincere as I was. I see now a singe Source, single universe with one soul. I guess, being human can be said to mean I have forgotten temporarily what it is like to be you and you have forgotten what it is like to be me. But we are no different. I see harmony in all the disharmony and in my own struggles. Fortunately separating myself from my physical reality has been an ongoing process over the last four years, and as things seemed to get more difficult I alse have felt increasingly detached from them. Like, I know, it is not real but someting a body I am connected to is experiencing. I can simply feel all the experiences, but I know they are not me. THe fear is the weirdest of those....but it becomes a solitary endeavor that I know will take my awareness into a new and unexperienced place, in no time. Last few days have been amazing; dreams, physical pain and a way to feel it and release the emotions behind it. Working thru incredible fear, more intense nausea and headaches I have never been able to calm before. Lots of effort, making me tired but I had nowhere to be but here doing that. Things lifted in midafternoon, and part of me snapped into place. Here I am able to see that Nothing is required of me anymore, and I am soon going to partake of an exitence that has no judgments or expectations, I like it just the way it is. I see here is where my true desires lie, waiting for me. Like they ask Paris over and over....what will she do to help the world....and so correctly observing that she could not commit, because she does not know. It's because she cannot, she has only one world of herself to conquer and she is doing that in her own way. So I see I am doing so as well, and my own world is the whole world and nothing more need be done.