battle of the energies

haha, well there is no separation and enemies as far as i understand the universe at this point in my learning, so i guess i should have chosen a better title that doesnt imply separation. but oh well lol^^. angel humour??hehee

ive been so good following my intuition today! how about it? i wanted to go surfing today but my intuition told me no when i got up - and stubborn me thought id go anyway, when i got up, went to the bathroom and realised it was girls time of the month! intuition knows best! so then i listened to it for the rest of the day, which was easy because it told me to go to a beads shop (ive never been in one before), but i had an awesome time making my first ever earrings! i think it all connects to my purpose. its getting clearer: i need to create, and the creations are to inspire people to see the love and brilliance of the universe..hopefully in themselves.

but yeah. the battle? its a scramble of energies these last 5 days an im having trouble keeping up. difficulty concentrating, sleeping in, restless. it was yesterday, i went out with a friend. the dalai lama is here in nz and we met up to go see him, but he sold out, so we ended up having a chat about spirituality in a nearby cafe. that was cool, and then we went to a wine bar which was also fun. it was especially good for me, because this is about the second time since having suffered from depression for over a year, that i went out to a bar! so that was good. the trouble started after that... we decided to go shopping to make dinner back at his flat, but then on the way home i became hugely anxious when he opened a bottle of beer as he was driving. it freaked me out so much that i decided i wanted to go home right then and there. but then when he drove me back to my car the slightly tipsy feeling i had had turned into anxiety and depression, and it was so bad that i could barely look up. it was really weird and so weird that i thought somebody might have spiked my drink earlier. i was like that for an hour, until finally i remembered that last time i felt this kind of depression suddenly descend on me was when some negative energies had attached themselves to me.

i asked my friend to bear with me for a few minutes and closed my eyes and called archangel michael and looked for the negative energies. sure enough there were three of them - a chalky white one almost as big as me stuck to my back, a little black on on my neck, and a watery black one as big as me half coming out of my stomach! man...so michael and i filled them each with love until they changed into light, and then he carried them off into the light. this took about 5 minutes, and when i opened my eyes, i was totally back to how i was, before the weirdness happened..

people have written back on the forum to me, telling me that these are things of my own creation, lessons i need to learn, but im not so sure...are they feelings that manifest as what look like negative energy beings?? they feel so foreign that i personally get hte feeling that they`re just things that are foating around which get stuck on me. like this feeling, i got a lot more mildly but nevertheless got, last time i was with this same friend. i remember having to shake stuff off me after i saw him...is it possible that there are negative spirits hanging around him?? because i get this feeling that that might be the case. he himself isnt a negative guy, though he is a bit lost as he had a tough childhood...

but anyway, twice in three days is a lot to suddenly cope with, and i think it has something to do with all the reality shift things that are going on with me right now too. im just totally grateful that i know how to at least help them - because though they are scary and a pain, when you send them love you realise that they`re just poor old sods, and they just need love...