aura holes and nightmares

i dont mean to keep writing, but things just keep happening! lol. im writing to organise my thoughts and keep track of whats unravelling^^.

so two days ago i had my first bad dream in ages. it was by far the scariest dream ive ever had, plus the clearest. it began as such a lucid dream i thought it was a message - i couldnt understand but an acronym of erco, which had something to do with aviation and the ocean came up. then i was with high school acquantances, who progressively got meaner and meaner (ive been ostracised at school so im guessing this is just that memory), but then it got very scary when i looked down the hall, which was dark, and a shadowy figure which i assumed was a teacher was staring at me, then it was as if they extended their energy tentacles towards me. it was so menacing and real that for the first time ever i actually got myself to wake up. but then, the sticky black feeling didnt go away, it just kind of stayed with me for about half an hour...

i thought the first half of my dream was a message...but the second half. the rest of the day i kept having moments where id be suddenly filled with dread, then yesterday nad today ive been really flitty and anxious; i thought my depression was coming back.
then this evening, i was just reading an angel book and about how negative energies can be attracted to holes in the aura..well just last week id done a chord cutting healing meditation with my healer which is supposed to take a little while to heal. i suspected that there had been a negative energy attracted to me - so i did a meditation with archangel michael carrying any dark energies into the light- and wow, i felt like something had lifted and felt more like my carefree self again!

but i remember now that my best friend who i used to flat with, also a few times, told me about these demons that came to her in her dreams who she had to stand strong against then send into the light. i wonder if it was something like that that i just experienced. it would make me feel a lot better if i knew how to protect myself...im even a little scared of sleeping. but for now, i might just keep michael by my side as well as my guardian angel mr metatron, and just see if i can remember to envelop it in love and send it off into the light if i get another one again. we`ll see how it goes^^

ive been doing so much learning, i can already feel many angels by my side, and ive invoked some others, as well as animal guides! i was a bit hesitant about believing that there was a complex system of the upper dimensions until about 2 weeks ago, preferring to believe that though earth was a system of beings and hierarchies, the unseen realm must be just souls floating around with no order. lol, now im kind of beginning to see that that was quite humancentric thinking^^! if there are many different dimensions who are spiritually more advanced than us, it doesnt necessarily automatically make them The spirit - if they still exist as individual entities then it only makes sense that they would have systems or organisations as well. heehee. it`s very exciting, little by little (actually, maybe quite fast), im beginning to be able to understand and accept a wider reality~! yea~! and its awesome beautiful^^

but this experience with the nightmare has shown me that i perhaps need to understand all aspects as thoroughly as i can as i learn them so i know how to take care of myself too.

thats me. drinking yogi tea, a candle by my side, michael`s cape on my back 1am in the morning and trying as much as possible to stay with the flow of the big energy churn.
love and hugs to everyone~