Oh God, Hear my prayers, and stop just reavealing the answer to just a few, and me..Help me. Strengthen Me

My heart was open and I shed tears and asked the why question many a times yesterday, figuring there are only a small percentage of us that have the insight, and are considered enlightened, and hearing the words, "thats too deep for me", and "I'm not on your level".

The moment I feel connected to everything that is life, the more the things in this life (with the exception of nature) tends to be distant in the remembrance of who we all truly are within.

And today, I wake up, and I AM in contemplative prayer, asking why is this all happening to me so quickly, why am i the one amongst the ones around and in my life that seems to be "choosen". Why did I see the angel on Jan. 20th, why not the world, the world needs to see these things, why me, what picked me out to say hey, Damon, Heres an angel, heres some "gifts, some blessings" and you know what, by the way, we are not going to reveal to all quite yet, just you and a few others, just be patient, its coming, patient. And I ask The Universe this morning, during my morning walk to the store, please give me an answer in 3D, dont give me sparks, and flashes of light, not auras,not a billboard, not a logo, or a sign from a store,

I want something tangible to answer me, Please, God, If your listening, answer me in this way!

ANd then, I AM walking back, and an older woman, maybe in her 70's was walking towards me, and I caught her eyes, and as she passed me, for a foot or so, she turns around, and she goes " Sir, do you have a dollar, for the bus, I AM old, and I tend to FORGET things, and this morning I forgot my purse when I left the house" I ask " Is all you need is a dollar?" She says, well, I wanted to buy some BREAD. "Maybe 2 dollars?"

I reach into my wallet, and I hander her the singles that I had, 4 in all, and she says unto me " God Bless You" Four Times.

My partner came to visit me this morning as we do every Thursday to have breakfast together, and I AM crying, and telling her that God Answers me all the time, that the universe answers me all the time, every time, imediately, like the butterfly that lands on my window, after asking something, or 2 doves at my door when I leave my building, doves, not pigeons, but doves, or the birds that greet me everytime, the cardinal, my bud, or my friend the bluejay.

I want an answer to every question, ONE appears, and always my answers are immediately answered by GOD, Universe, Spirit, Light, and this continues the questioning, Why Do I see this,why am I answered immediately these days since December...WHO AM I? WHO AM I to recieve the splendors, who am I to recieve the bounty, the gifts, heaven, the visions, the love, why why why! Because it hurts me when I see that many are not witnessing God unless it is through me...and they want answers form me, answers they have themselves..they just forgot...thats my answer, and it was GOOD, but I Cry, I want everyone to know what I know, want everyone to have what I have, want everyone to see themselves in this reality, not just selected like myself...

where is God In everybodys life, I mean I see it in them, but not they in themselves, and I cry.The seperation is great, and its not thier fault, they dont know, they are conditioned to know only 1 meaning, and for many its the meaning of duality...

In front of people that seem to no longer know the old me, for the new me is all I AM, and all I represent to these heralding changes is LIGHT, but they wish to worship Light, rather than remember they have it within...

I remember, thats my daily bread, and so it is, I guess, I will continue to live my new life, and just spread when able my light into the far reaches of everything, hoping and patient that God answers my big Prayer...Wake Em All UP, please do not have them look up to me, think I AM your choice, please remind them God, that ALL of them are Your Children..Please Intervene, I cant do this, and doubt creeps in, only for a moments time, until I go out, and see someone, and I smile, and Love them, and tell them with my Eyes, my lamp, my torch...And remain Quiet. This is my path today, and I readily accept it, though I wish there was more I can do, without having to meet everyone, In my mind, I pray for all, I pray that my prayer is already answered.