contentment...

i think i finally had a brake thru,to be free spiritualy is,for me,to not fill/feel regret and suffering,for anything...for me ,i dont want to fill/feel guilty for the things i do,or bitterness for the things others do,but want to be free to exspress myself freely...to be open minded,allows me to experence anything in life in order to know what i like or dislike,which creates desires...desires are what makes life fun for me,between you and me i wish to thank you for helping me release myself from old ways and preparing me to assend to a new life,thank you for your pationates and best wishes to you from us who have been trying to help you thru his eyes and him thru your eye,because he felt like noone wants him to be loved like he wants to be loved which is unconditionaly and without bias for the things he doesnt do that he thinks he should do...do to the way he was raised by his mother,who loved him for himself after making him who she wanted him to be.so he thought he had to become what he thought was saposed to be because others reenforced this notion in his head,he could never be content with anyone thing of life in the pursuite of happyness...he is still trying to deny what he was told was the truth,because he doesnt want to live without truth to you.so hes not listing to he heart any more without love maifesting its self in the physical and with proof of its oragin.he thinks this is a way to bring about the changes in his life.with the serious problems facing the earth,we need help from higher athorioty is his answer.do you think he right?