st pauls continued

It took me over an hour to get myself together to come down the staircase xxx as i decended the stairs it began again but not as intence more bringing tears to my eyes xxx by the time i reached the bottom of the stairs i was completly drained and my appearence worried my friend who got me a chair as i was physiclly shaking and had gone very pale xxx after recovering we went to the resturant in the crypt of the church to get some water and a cup of tea xxx i sat very quite and still xxx my friend seeing that i was recovering asked if i wanted to look around some more in the gift shop xxx i declined as i was still trying to get to grips with whatever had happened to me i had never experienced anything like it before and luckily not since xx while my friend was away i became aware once again of the young girl in spirit that i had seen in st martins church she stood looking really happy as i said hello to her she made me aware of about 15 other children xxx i asked what was hapening and was told that i had to go to the brompton auratory xx i had never heard of the place xx my friend returned from the shop and was also aware of the children xx we set off to find brompton auratory which turned out to be a catholic church xx as i walked in there nothing could have prepared me for the over wellming love that i felt xxx it really is a special place and would recomend it to anyone i have never been a catholic or have any interest in catholism ( well not in this life anyway ) but walking into around there it really felt like home xx i became aware of a beautil statue of our lady and felt impressed to kneel and pray as i did this i was told to find the shrine to st terase ( i had never heard of her ) i did as i was asked as i looked upon her shrine there was a childs casket placed underneath and a statue of her surrounded by children xx i knelt and fet such a release xx the tears fell from my eyes xx when i arose i felt completly free like some layers had been taken from me like my load had been lightend xxx i felt i was that little girl and was later told about the children who had died in st pauls whilst they worked upon the staircase xxx the funny thing was i picked up a pamphlet on the train titled cleaning st pauls and a picture of all the scaffolding as they worked on the out side xx thank you for reading xx apologies for being long winded xxx