Waking from a nightmare

Waking from a nightmare
Dreaming of someone dieing
Are these the gifts that I have now.

Can I give them back.
Seems it is time for me to run and hide again.
Seems that I am now able to see things that are dark and evil.
What is this gift that I now have.
Can I give these gifts back.

I helped someone stay alive once.
She now is able to bring herself back.
Seems I am the bringer of life.
If I can gift life do I also have to give death?

Welcome to the world where things are not what they seem.
Welcome to a world where a dream is no longer a dream.
Spinning black swords of jet.
Spinning whites sword of truth.

I'm scared right now.
I never thought I would admit it.
But yes I'm scared and I have only me to understand what is happening.

Where did this gift of sight comes from.
I saw it as a waking nightmare at 3:00 am this morning.

A stranger being beaten in a dark alley
Someone that was over 1000 miles away.
How could I help this stranger when I don't know his name.

I admit that I am scared of what I now see.
I think it is time that I shut a few doors of my own.
This world is just a dream.
One where people can see love or hate in each other eyes.
I don't want to spend time with someone on a hospital floor.
Making sure that someone can still breath.
It can be scary to have those gifts.
I am happy she is able to heal herself

I forgot how to heal a soul
I enjoy healing an injury or a pain.
It is hard to understand what pain there is left.

I fell in love again and it is nice.
I dreamed I was with a dragon
And she enjoyed my company.

Spinning a black sword of darkest crystal
Wearing a cloak of dark sapphire
I will go hide once again and let everyone rest.

People know where I am.
Those who can see me do.
I don't know who I have become now.
Guess it is time to just rest.
so when people want to find me. I will be that shadow behind you.

Now I'm scared. Now I'm alone. Now I'm just here for me this week.