Im Scared
I m scared. Im seeing things I never seen before, (thinking) Im not supposed to see these things. But I AM. I dont have the slightest as to what it all represents, am I creating this? Im scared. I dont want this power ( I say to myself) but there is no (off switch). Why do I manifest these things if in fact I AM The One doing so.
Im sad for the world, They dont see what I see, at least most of them do not. I cant talk to anyone except on here, for now anyway. What is happening? Of course I have questions, and I want to cry because I dont know. So I cry, tears slide off the side of my eye...my eye, the al seeing, all knowing...information coming to me in the power of NOW, always, info i cant quite yet share with anyone. Shapes to the masses, assisting them to remember, yet they are not, and I cry for them. I know everything is going to be ok, to what extent...Im not sure.
Im afraid, I feel alone, but I AM Not ALone at all. Sparks, Shapes, ]]old as the earth itself, angels, vortexes, umbers, colors, meaning of all things...I need a face to face, I go to religious figures and I get a exorsism ( a blessing really) but to them it was an exorcism, I go to those close to me, and I recieve empathy, but most blank stares, and words to keep me quiet, (Im coming off wierd) Things coming to manifestation weeks after I vision it, to the day exact...Prophecy so to speak..What Am I. I AM. This is the only answer that answers all, yet I seek a more specific cause, yet the more I seek, the more of different phenonema occurs, leaving me with more questions than answers. Hearing ANgelic Singing, and knowing people I never met, and knowing they will meet so and so, on this date or this date. I share with them what I vision, and they want to know more, but all I can say, is that your going to be meeting this guy James, or Christine, or A Susan will be coming into your life on this day, or this day...and then it happens...they ask me, what is thier purpose for me, and all I can say, is that it is something they have to follow up on, not me, Im just a messenger. My boss, My friends, even my mom, I had such experiences happen with already, and they are getting more complex in the manner they are manifesting....Coincedence, never more, they believe...I tell them, they manifest, that we are co-creator....then I get the Blank stare...why dont they see, why dont they remember...
I can understand though, for 30 years I was like them, under the dense viel of shadows, I cant lift the viel for them, I AM simply reminding them that they have a viel over them, they need to lift it with intention, they need to know I AM, like I understand I AM.
I am scared, I choose to stay here a few weeks ago....wtf...do you know what I even mean by that...I choose to stay, the power in knowing I couldve went "home", becoming the spark, the lighting.
I saw the eye of GOD, I spoke with him...Told Him I want to stay...want to help everyone here, I cryed, I felt my own insanity, the brink of who and what I AM, the sadness of my mission..and I cryed, the detachment of my mission, and I cryed.
..and now I AM Recieving what I asked for...more ammunition, more sight, more ..abundance of SPIRIT WITHIN AND ALL.
Yes, I can see the things I do, what do I do, like some great cosmic puzzle, putting it all together...yet it is ALL Together, in some strange unfathonable existance...Another spark..orange..why me, and then Why Not Me Counters..I AM, thats Why, just like you, like all.
When The Truth Permeates Through All Landscapes and ALL things upon it...Detachment of Shadow Will Be Miraculous indeed. Why NOW, this time, waking up prior to all...what is my mission? I AM. I KNOW. I AM SCARED. I dont want to manifest stuff on accident...I AM afraid of My Power..my Ego says this, I KNOW. But you understand this transition, some of you have experienced it first hand, others are wtnessing it in others first hand, and others desire it first hand.
I need to write these:
I AM Confident
I AM Responsible
I AM Powerful
I AM Love
I AM Mercy
I AM Grace
I AM Remembrance
I AM Glory
I AM Kingdom
I AM Detachment
I AM Unconditional
I AM Forgiveness
I AM Aware
I AM Now
I AM