Advice for someone trying to open their heart :( ?

For the longest time, I was involved in a lot of revolutionary progressive activities..

Sadly, during this time, i became hateful, dissodant, and just plain mean.

In this course I began to realize that I couldn't trust anyone, and I now realize I alienated myself from those I love the most.

I haven't realized it until now, but my heart chakra is completely closed, trying to regain grounding only today. I can't believe it. I can't believe what has happened to me, but I have shut everyone out of my life who could help me.

I have pushed everyone away, because I trusted the wrong people with my feelings :(...

Ugh, what do I do?