~~Quietness~~

I had so many great emails come my way~ I am much appreciative to each~ What I have realised that some are quiet and do not share because their own pain is deep~ They do not feel as if they have much to say when they are baring heavyiness~ If they would come out and just share what they feel~ this is really needed~ The time to say is Now~ You have a right to be in your own pefection~ This is your perfection, the flaw that you think~ This is how you may share your intensity~ My pain is deep and it is unknown as well~ This iS not from a child-hood pain~ Nor is it from anything I can mentally remember~ This is very deep and it takes me on a downward spiral from time to time~ Maybe more times than I would like to admit~But seeing the emails from those who feel they have not much to share~ because they feel they are in constant hell~ That is to be shared~ everything is not in Love and JOY for growth~ This is not to send anothers vibration downward~ to acknowledge anothers intense feelings is a look into a soul~ A look into what is a part fo you as well~ You may one day carry a heaviness and need assistance and you will remember these words~ That they have set before you~I am not asking you to give anything orbe more than you are~ What I am asking if for those that are on the side lines share~ break free and place your hand out~ Mine is here as well~ I hurt ~ I am not always understanding the place that I am in~ You may handle this any way you feel you may need~ We are all different that is what is so unique~ If you speak in Love~ that is fine~ But~ those who are hurting have there place as well~ Just allow them to go through their own "stuff". I am sharing this as I have said, I am very appreciative of all that has reached out to me, the Joy and the sorrow:)

This place is not "new" to me~ I have been here many times before and it has swallowed me up and I have found my way out~ It just becomes very tiredsome to constantly travel an intense road~ I am not sure how to even break out fo this or even if I am suppose too:) I am not "new" to this journey, I have been on this for quite a time, and it has had many great attributes and it has allowed much growth, Yet I cannot deny the "intensity" or "sensitivity" I have tried many things that have been suggested, it does not work for me. I pray in this "space" of being that I am in some how able to help others through my own trife. I am not looking to be a martyr/hero/saint I am just looking to be me. This very well may not be a personal feeling that has taken ahold of me, In the same it is intense. It cannot be denied or dismissed.
Yes, being kind and gentle to yourself is surely needed, but for how long can one hold out this way? How long do you continously walk this place? It seems to be intense for some? and easy for others, or another can handle this better.
I have been guilty of advising others in despair to "let go" "be still" "flow through this", But, when you are in Hell it is hard to even comphrehend these simple words. They mean absolutely nothing to the pain you feel, they feel just that words with empty meaning. Just let it flow through you, I have said this and it has been suggested back to me. But, I say when you are traveling down a hard and bumpy place/space it is almost close to impossible to understand those terms. You feel as if they are just words that we use so freely. That is why it is very very important to be very careful when you are vunerable and are in a space of loss that you read messages with "care" and not get pulled in or caught up in a persons messages. I am speaking about me as well, through this, I have come to an understanding that what I put out is crucial for another viewing my words, because in my channelings, messages, I have my own personality mixed in there, it is almost impossible to not have your own traits be in the mix. I realised this today and will be very careful on how I portray myself to others in my messages.
And what I read I will be even more careful with, discernment is something that is needed, yes, but When you are desperate to hear something or to have some confirmation it can be a double edge sword as well. I say this with Truth of my own experience.
Have we just run out of things to say, or have we wired our own selves to just repeat what has been uttered to us? I need to "feel" more than just that, I want to help others in a more profound way. I want to have an answer to this pain~I want to make sense out of this walk~ I as many have had enough of this constant annoying place~ I am asking the mericful warriors of light, be it here or in the realms to Help us, Help us with a way that is different and stronger~Helps us not to suffer these times in such a way that it constantly bringing us to our knees.It seems the more we can handle difficult situations ~ harder ones seem to appear to those who were able to get through barely~ I understand that this may at one time been the way to ascension~ enlightenment~ But, I do not think it has to remain this way for us~ By the grace of all that is out there hear my Plea my prayer for your help~ For your blessings to be bestowed upon us~ Show us a solution~ That is easier~ That is lighter~That is New and can be useful.
Angel Hugs,
Donna