gift of Eastern

BOEM!
Hitting me right in the face
deep in the kingdom of my Heart.
I am in Silence.

AARGH!
A dark cellar place
yes I've been there before
yet without this confidence.

WOH!
Where is the fear, the anxiety
the frantic struggle of my mind
to retain control or power?

YES!
In all of its simplicity
in this empty and full space I find
our shining bright white flower.

I wrote this poem this morning and I remember so well, some years ago, that I wanted to change...Not satisfied whith myself, my life, my work, my way of struggling through everything.
So I took on this journey and it was a hell of a journey...At times I would think, yes, I am 'there'. I've figured it all out now and I just say 'no' to all I don't want....but there would come a time when all turned out te be yet another illusion...
So my journey continued and I found this place, deep inside of me, where there was just nothing but darkness. I found it a terrifying place, but somehow I felt I had to stay there for a while and just wait. All I had was my desire to love myself and love Life.
This place, this dark place is no longer dark and I can say with all that I am that I fully own this place and even more then that...the flower that is growing there belongs to all of us....somehow...but the journey never ends..
I just wanted to share this with you, you beautiful World of Souls.
Happy greetings, Jonnie