What to do when you have to go against your own system?

I have a huge problem, with our comunity. We have a large ammount of physical threats, that are gald to let themsefls be known. The logal law enforcement have tuned a blind eye, because my father finaly got wise to the Masonic ways. ANd now they do what they can to really hurt us. I have a very stong person trained in a dark way, I do not know much about A Voodoo user. That I had once met ant talked to. He had been traind In Hatti. So I am being totlay overwhelmed by his own spirittal pressure. I have been able to bind another, so he is not much of a threat. I keep gounding myself and doing realingment. But It looks like I am going to have to use methods that I had put into a dormant state. In which I did not like using. This power botherd me because of my own Mastery of it. Of personaly Beening an Elder In a certain Worldwide group.

This is the type of thing where these people try to hurt you by any means. Being trained by a great guy in the "IDF SF" I am no stranger to geting into a physical confertation. But If Have to open this darkness I have locked away, and then use a physical tecnique to subdue someone. I may loss myself in the moment. Not only hurting Any around me that threaten my exsitance, but also being ended in the skirmish.

I must ask that eventualy forgiveness will be given, but it looks like i have no other option. Being Indego I hate this type of stuff.

Christoph