Eating Healthy, and Peace

The journey continues.

I cannot tell you how helpful it has been to share
the process of trying to eat more healthfully and
how being able to write about it, and externalize
the process even down to what I ate, had been helpful
in keeping me on track with the process.

It added a sort of level of accountability.

I have difficulty maintaining routines and sticking
with them. When they are for my own good even,
I don't know why this is so hard. I feel a little bit
alone in this.

Today I have not eaten much. Some Chimichurri Rice,
a lot of cauliflower mashed with butter and spices
and a wheat free cupcake (my sister strikes again!)

I had a SEVERE breakout last week, I believe from peanut
butter. Luckily these things are not visible, being on my head
and back.

Since I was already itching, I fell further off the wagon
and ate meat over the weekend.

I don't know if it's coincidental or just it takes a long time
for the outbreak to heal but I noticed the itching started
to clear up as soon as I stopped meat totally again. (Monday am)

But as I have been reading up more on the causes
of odd skin problems there could be a link to genetically
modified foods.

This scares me, as it seems that there are so many of them.

It is very strange to have one organ (the skin) going totally wacky.
I am also noticing two really large (bigger than grapes) lumps under
my skin on either side of the base of my spine. I wonder if they are lymph
nodes. Its really hard to get an appointment with my primary care doctor
and I am under the care of another one for the possible lyme disease.

Right now I am just scared, and I don't want to be, I want to be whole,
healthy and well. I say this mantra. I said it with courage, and yet, I still
sometimes feel weak. This is one of those moments dear friends and I reach out to you.

I had a wonderful thing happen at the spiritualist church last week
during the healing meditation. While the healer had her hands on me
I had a column of light (smoky, blues and purples) coming out of my
head connecting to source. I got the message "Peaceful thoughts, Peaceful words,
peaceful actions"

I continued this mantra after she had finished and i returned to my seat
while others were in the healing chairs, for about 15 minutes, and during
this a woman chanted and drummed, I kept doing the mantra in rhythm.

The sermon was also about inner and outer peace, and I was also selected
that day out of about 100 people to have a reading during the mediumship
section. It was very positive.

There is good news amongst the struggle, I am just needing to raise my
vibration right now to continue meeting challenges.

Love and light to you all dear readers,

S