The Way of the Peaceful Warrior

The Way of the Peaceful Warrior

This is the name of a movie that I watched recently
as a prescription by one of our dear lightworker friends GoldenDolphin
"Gdolphin" http://lightworkers.org/user/1278

She is a minster, healer and coach who works with
people who have "ADD." (I put ADD in quotes because
I don't believe Attention Deficit Disorder is accurate.
I don't believe for people like myself, that it is about
lacking attention, I pay attention to EVERYTHING, and also
to call it a disorder, is painful and limiting.)

For quite some time I have been struggling with the idea
I need to let go of many things in my life.

One of the things I need to let go of is the idea of perfection
and the ideal I had for myself. Since I had a brain tumor and brain
injury nearly 20 years ago, my life has never been the same. I have
thought I would be able to fully recover all my previous cognitive abilities.

The premise of the movie (which is based on a true story) is about a young
college athlete, a gymnast, who shatters his leg and is told he will never
compete again. Meeting a mysterious service station attendant who has many
of the keys to unlocking inner peace and the way the Universe works transforms him.

There are many good bits of wisdom in the film, but for me the most
resonant scene is when the main character (I feel like I am writing a book report
in 8th grade LOL) must let die a part of himself -- that part which is his
view of the successful and highly achieving athlete that he once was.

He has become something new, and the old self must die.

I realize there are parts of myself that must die also in order for me to
proceed, even to heal fully. I know I can recover more and heal fully
but NOT in the way that I thought. I thought that rehabilitiation would help
that medications would help, even holistic medicine. But none of those things
will work with out surrender and inner peace. That I must first HAVE THAT INNER PEACE
before I can have progress.

That all the striving I have been doing, is not helping me to heal.

In the movie he has a vision about his injury. When I was a child I would
often see myself in a hospital bad with a very difficult medical condition.
All this came to pass. It is strange and wonderful the coincidences I see.
But also what is inspiring is that he was able to heal and compete again.

I was told by spirit that I would be able to heal myself, that the tools
to do this would present themselves and that I would then be able to teach others.

This is a part of that journey.

I am crying now, so I know it is true.

I have said for weeks it feels like I am dying, and now I know why.
There is no shame. Let shine the flame.

My love and light to you dear ones,

S a m a n t h a