What's the point- really- have you ever thought about it?

As you can see I'm really restless today.

I was wondering what kind of feelings or answers or thoughts you all get when you start pondering the big picture?
I mean the whole enchilada, the big cheese, all of it?
The point of the universe and everything in it.
The point of our souls and soul growth and earth and nature and weather and space and solar systems and stars and black holes and the infinite nature of the universe, etc., etc., etc.

Why if we are all trying to get back to one-ness with spirit were we given free will in the first place?

Why if some of us ask spirit everyday whether to do this or that, go here or there, why were we even given free will?

Why duality? Why trying to get past duality? Why trying to get back what we used to have? Where did that even come from in the first place and why?

Why, really?

And back to the bigger point of the infinite universe--
If it's the big bang, then why? Where did the energy come from in the first place?

If it's evolution, then why? Where did the first microscopic organisms come from in the first place, and why?

If it's creation, then why? Just why?

Really, it can fry your mind if you are on this path long enough and question everything. I mean really questioning everything-- eventually you get to the part where there's nothing left to question but why did it all start in the first place?
The great mystery--but why?????????

What's the point? :)