A personal shift in consciousness

Hello All :) Thank you for dropping by.

I've been extremely engrossed in my spiritual life lately. Which may sound all well and good, however, they say balance is what is needed in life. I've never been a balanced person. I like going to extremes. This has not always worked out in my favor. :) Enough said on that subject.

The real reason I'm here today is simply to share with you that I'm starting a major transition, a shift in consciousness. There have been various signs, but my meditations have made it most obvious and my strange health issues are starting to make sense now. In reality, it may have started months or even years ago. Strange aches, pains, very sporadic depression and disassociation, upset digestive system, weird sensations while sleeping, being able to let go of old addictive behavior and patterns. Yes, I have an addictive personality. Don't knock it till you try it. It can be fun! :) And no, I'm not stressed. That's the first question everyone asks.

But as of recent, the most welcoming changes have been during meditation. I've had a few in the last few months, where I've sensed a powerful force coming on and I've terminated the sessions. Why, you might ask ? I'll explain in a bit. My last meditation took me farther than I'd ever been before, with some familiar symptoms and some new, losing all sense of my physicalness, body jerks, buzzing and pops in the ears, tingles in various body parts. But what happened next totally shocked me. My consciousness took a major shift, while my body was taken over by this strange new force. The energy patterns were intense and strange to me. My heart started racing, as if it were going to jump out of my chest. Then I felt the heat at the base of the spine, and I knew what could be next. Well, not being sure I wanted to pursue this just yet, as if that were an option right (uh, excuse me, Ms K, would you mind terribly if we didn't do this tonight...I'm feeling a bit out of sorts at the moment), I gently removed myself out of this trance. It worked, no instant repercussions. She was quite forgiving. I was quite surprised actually! It's like being turned down sex when you're really in the mood! :) But I've been my normal self since...mostly.

Back in January, I developed symptoms of faintness and weird pressure and pains in my head. Mostly left side. These bouts of cloudiness came on randomly, but often while driving. They would last about a half hour and then my head totally cleared up. During these sessions, I'd experience panic attacks and mental fogginess. I noticed that visually concentrating on something helped. This went on for 2-3 months. Then my meditations started getting intense. Whereas, it used to take a good hour to really shift consciousness, I can do it in a matter of minutes now.

Bottom line here folks, is that, a spiritual force is attempting to work through me at every available time it gets. I've noticed that a meditative-like trance is always just a day dream away. In other words, if I stop focusing on what i am doing and just let my mind wander, it starts to go into a trance. Not a good thing while driving ! I've been in serious contemplation, because if I were to receive a full blow of the Kundalini energy, it could turn my life upside-down. Those few months of grogginess alone, affected my personal and work life. And those symptioms were nothing compared to a full blown Kundalini explosion. But I'm torn. I've always wanted nothing more than a Kundalini awakening. Until that is, as of recent, where it could actually become a reality. My hesitation is simply my family. If i were single, it be a no brainer. But I am total sustenance for my family, and I need to remain totally functional. And with Kundalini, that isn't always possible, as some of you know all too well.

I've prayed to GOD to send what is best for me, as if he wouldn't, right ? I'll proceed gently with my yoga and meditation. I shall recieve what I am destined for. I've learned to live with various weirdness thus far, I'm confident I'd adapt to any future condition. And then there is always the chance, that this isn't what I think it is, and nothing will ever come of it. I'm simply being cautious. Meditation is the most powerful technique we have, to raise our vibration and expand our consciousness. But with it, comes the potential for some undesirable or unexpected results.

It's just so exciting though ! I live for weirdness. And although I perceive this as a positive spiritual event, it has caused me to mentally dwell excessively on the situation. My latest addiction, if you will :)

Your thoughts are always welcome and I thank you kindly for listening. Everything is always OK...as I said in an earlier blog, and I'm sticking to that belief ! I hope you can too.

sweet dreams my friends, and may life be, well, weird, in a good way.

~DolphinSmile :)