The Black Dog

I consider myself to be one of those "glass is half full" people, but every so often, I take the opposite view. Now is one of those times. This seems to happen more often since I've been away from work (4 months now) due to a shoulder injury. I suppose that I'm bored. I'm normally a very active person - my job was very physical, my hobbies were very physical. Things that made my heart soar were rock climbing and riding my motorcycle; neither of which I will be able to do for at least the rest of the year (longer depending on the possibility of surgery). I am pretty much feeling down and sorry for myself which is kind of pathetic if you look around at people with real problems.

What do I do with my days? Doing a sink of dishes and a load of laundry leaves me in pain for the rest of the day. I can only sit at my computer for so long before I feel like I've become one with my chair. I plan to start gardening, but I'm not sure how hard it will be on my shoulder. I walk every day. I do the odd website job. I spend a lot of time by myself, but now I don't even perk up around other people anymore. When I smile, I feel like I'm faking it - I've never been that person. I wish I could just snap out of it. Sorry to ramble...I guess I needed to vent. Thanks for being there.