Up to me

It's late....my mind is racing...the thoughts I have are in a jumble...It's funny because I know what I want.....that's not the problem.....the problem is getting the thing that I want the most and being able to correctly identify it when I see it....the problem is pacing myself till I do.....and the problem is waiting till I see it.....ha-ha you say....well so do I.....but then I think....how bad do I want it? That is the funniest part......not bad enough......I guess I can wait.....I am patient I can hold on and be able to pace myself.......but then again, do I want to? therein lies my dilemma.......do I want to?........because it all boils down to one thing.....me....I am important, I count, It's my decision to make after all...mine alone.

what do I want to do? me........