Keeping a gratitude journal, April 11, 2008

I am so tired, I have been emoting most of the afternoon.

I am in deep change in the NOW.

I have had little ability to read or write or do anything organized like WORK! for some weeks now. This is distressing, but I think changes are happening on a deep level.

Yet I have been doing things. I got someone new to help do the accounting at the nonprofit I started. I got some computer equipment, which will be very helpful. I invited some very special women friends (and a magic teleporting cricket) over to celebrate my 18th re-birthday. I passed my first exam (there are several more) for getting my coastguard liscence (sort of a joke, sort of not) I haven't taken a real class with exams in 20 years. I have been learning to SAY what I think and feel as it happens. I have been sticking up for myself in conversations.

As I said: I am in deep change in the NOW.

There is a part of me that is scared. I have to let go of the fear so that I can manifest all the great goodness I have to offer.

Gdolphin reminded me to journal on gratitude.

Please share your own experiences with a gratitude journal. How has it helped you? Do you want to create your own?

In the "law of attraction" idea (no i have not seen the movie) it is my understanding that whatever we think we can manifest, so I am trying to shift from fear to gratitude so I can manifest more things to be thankful for, instead of more things to be afraid of.

Here goes, in no particular order:

-I am thankful for Trader Joes:
Especially chimmichurri rice and the dark chocolate bars.
(it must be dinner time)
-While we are on the subject I am thankful for chocolate
-I am thankful for this wonderful place Lightworkers
-I am grateful to the founders and to the maintainers
-I am thankful for Gdolphin who has been so helpful to talk to over the phone
-I am thankful for Rosalie and Bushwakka who skype me from the future
-I am thankful for Walking Devi's Green Shirt and for her sisterhood which lasts longer than we met here!
-I am grateful for the internet in general
-Sunny days! which we have not had so many of lately
-my sister and her husband who share their AMAZING kids with me
-for my new neighbor who is very friendly
-for Leticia who helps me with things at home
-for my apartment which has a great view
-for Star Island
-for the sailing club i belong to
-for David who checks in on me to see how I am doing
-for the "ADD" Group I go to and the new women's one we just started,that is turning into an artists and spiritual support group!! (ADD is not a disorder)
-for the good health care providers that I have had helping me figure out what is goign on wiht me
-for my intuition and inner voice which can be very loud and helps me along the way
-for growing up near the ocean
-for laughing with my mother
-for the way i look at the world i got from my dad
-for hugs from Sarah, i miss her
-poetry

many more things.

What are you thankful for, what do you want to share?