A Bit Confused

I met a man a while back, who has since been travelling in and out due to business ventures. It slammed me like a ton of bricks just how natural it felt, being with him. A deep sense of sameness, Oneness with him had me shaken to the core. It is still there and growing even deeper. I know who he is.

Looking into his eyes and feeling his energy is like looking and feeling myself. I don't quite know what to do with that. It feels so pressing. How can you miss someone who is right in front of you? From his lips came the same utterances in my soul of my soul that I dared not share with him for fear of being too "intense." When I feel and see us together in the ethers, I see golden rays and that golden mandala and I see Divine. I see Unity. In a sea of spiraling whites and blues and golds and purples...

And all spiritual aside, how does this work in physical terms? I'm too much of a realist in some aspects, because while our life experiences are remarkably similar and our birthdates are remarkably similar, we are different people. We are in harmony but in physical reality, how does this make for a solid relationship? I do not know what challenges lie ahead and cannot ignore that sameness can also repel.

I feel complete when he is around. I do not feel alone when he is around but when I look into his eyes, I miss him as a memory. It's bittersweet and I don't know how to understand it. I cannot imagine him not in my life anymore. He is there, already. He always was.

I love him. In loving him, it feels like I am loving myself. In loving myself, I am loving Divine. I am Divine. He is Divine. We are One. We are. I am. Divine.