Awakenings & Visions

Hi Everyone!
I have been looking for someone or someplace to talk about/describe the things that have happened to me and the things that have been revealed to me in the last eight years. I have been on an AMAZING journey. My story is long and I apologize for that. But I am ever so grateful that I have found an audience; an audience that will have no problem believing what I have experienced.

It started one morning prior to me opening my eyes to start my day. I was in some sort of an awake not awake state. I was enveloped in the most blissful state I have ever experienced. It was as if pure Love washed over me. That in it self was incredible - but what happened next caused me to only be able to repeatedly say "Oh my God"! "Oh my God"! I actually was able to see inside my body and my Spirit was shown to me. It was unbelievable! The only thing I can think that it resembled is a 4th of July sparkler - only a thousand times more brilliant but with the same type of movement/energy. It was inside on the right side of my chest and it just kept radiating pure energy, pure LIGHT!

After that amazing morning I continually had these Awakenings. They were, and continue to be, the most intensely Peaceful, Loving, and Blissful experiences. I have been able to see things that I know are hard for some to believe have occurred. I have limited the re-telling of these events because I know they are without a doubt not believable based on the responses I have received when I have attempted to tell some about what I have seen or experienced. One person asked if I had shared any of what I was experiencing with my peers (mental health professionals). I decided then that it was a waste trying to "convince" certain individuals that what I was experiencing was in fact real. What I do know is what we know about Spirituality, Religion, and the way the Universe operates can fit in a small thimble compared to what is ultimate reality!

I have awakened from sleep to a room filled with fog that would evaporate as I became more awake. My eyes were seeing things that I had never heard anyone talk about before. After several months of awakening to a room filled with fog, I awakened one morning to see that the fog was actually coming from me - it was my breath that I could see.

I awakened one night to see three robed and hooded individuals standing at the foot of my bed. I could not see their faces. One of the hoods had small red lights that trimmed the edge of the hood. Another night I awakened and my room was a completely void of anything. There was NOTHING in my room -no walls, curtains, furniture, TV, bed - anything. I knew then that what we "see" is in fact illusions.

I awakened one night and sitting next to my bed was a huge white Sheep dog. It was like a hologram. My TV was on but the screen of the TV was not where it should be. It was off to the side of the cabinet it was suppose to be in. I looked at the screen where it was positioned and then looked at the cabinet where I knew it should be. My eyes eventually were able to adjust and the TV was no longer in two places. That's when I realized this hologram dog was sitting there next to my bed with its head turned toward the "two" TV screens and was aware I was seeing two TV screens. When the two TV screens aligned, the dog turned it’s head towards me and our eyes met. It then slowly evaporated. It appeared a few weeks later and it was laying on my bed next to me. I shouted to it to "Get Away"! It vanished.

I awakened another night to see a red grotesque "face" in front of my face. It appeared to have a long tail extended from it with no other body parts. I let out a somewhat loud "Ohhh" and it disappeared. What amazes me about all this is I don't seem to have any fear of going to sleep or awakening to whatever. I just know that I have been given an opportunity to "see" things that are amazing and I really find myself wondering what is next and not dreading any of it.

The Blissful envelopments/Awakenings continue to be the most wondrous thing of all. When it doesn't happen for a while I miss it and want it to occur. I noticed after the Awakenings started I became much more aware of my need to move away from things that caused my emotions to go all over the place. I no longer was able to watch certain TV movies or shows that contained violence or people in emotional turmoil. I limit my TV viewing to sitcoms and a few news broadcasts. I see enough drama, pain, fear, and suffering in my chosen field of work. I decided TV should mainly be for pure fun and laughter.

I work with programs that provide services to children in foster care. I have also worked with children that are diagnosed as Seriously/Severely Emotionally Disturbed (SED). I worked as the Director/Principal of a school for children who were not able to function in a regular school environment because of severe behavior disorders. The majority of the students were from the inner city. One of the students (16 y/o) was killed during an attempted robbery. The owner of the store killed him with his own gun.

This student was one of my favorite students. I saw in him the potential to survive his circumstances - an invalid Mother, an absent Father, foster care placement with a relative, a learning deficit, and chronic mental health issues. He was a professed gang member that I repeatedly told I didn't believe he was really as "bad ass" as he wanted everyone to believe. He repeatedly told me he was indeed a "bad ass". He would also say “You’ll see.” I took his death very hard. I just knew that what he was projecting was not who he truly was.

Several months after his death I awakened one night and there was a little boy standing about five feet from my bed. He was smiling at me. I kept asking myself why was this little boy revealed to me and why did he seem to know me.

I live on the second floor in an apartment that has a landing that runs along the side of it. I sometimes fall asleep with my bedroom window open. I awakened one night and observed a young man standing outside of my window looking in at me. I screamed. He covered his mouth as if he was stifling a laugh and faded away. I realized it was not a "real" person but a vision.

Later the next day the realization of who the young boy was became clear to me. It was my student. Covering his mouth and holding back a laugh was his response to knowing that I could see him! I had seen him do the mouth covering thing on many an occasion when he was a student at the school. I knew then that the little boy I saw was him. It was the "him" I always saw - the little boy inside a scared, pained filled teen who was projecting to the world a very tough demeanor that was not real.

These are but a few of the Amazing things that have occurred in my Life within the last eight years. I will end this by telling you about the most wonderful birthday party I threw for myself in 2004 to celebrate my 59th year. I had decorated each table with yellow flowers of different varieties. In the middle of each flower arrangement I had placed a lit candle. It was really quite pretty. I had given two people cameras to take pictures for me throughout the night.

Guests are still talking about how wonderful the party was and the special ambiance the party had. They talk about it as if they had never experienced such a gathering. I know I hadn't - it was indeed special. I had no idea just how special it really was until about a week after the party.

When I had the film developed I had double prints made. As I was going through the pictures there was one picture that had nothing on it. It was just sort of gray with no visible images. I continued to look at the rest of the pictures. A few days later I again looked at the pictures and when I came across the one with no images I tore up the first one and was getting ready to tear up the second one when my Spirit whispered "Look at the picture." I looked at the picture and could not believe what I saw.

The picture was indeed gray but, in the lower part, in the middle (exact middle - I measured it) of the picture there was one lit candle. I could not believe it. In the room in which the party was held and when picture taking started, it was full of people and it was well lit with candles on about twenty tables. The picture was unbelievable.

I had the picture blown-up to about 3' x 4'. It is more unbelievable when it was enlarged. There in the picture was a shadowy figure that appeared to be floating in the air. It was a side view of my husband. He was killed in a car accident in 1974. I always believed he was here with me when I needed him most and now I know that to be true. He was there to help me celebrate my birthday.

I will end now and wish all that read this Peace, Blessings, Love and continued movement Into the Light!

Speaking Spirit