This is my life 7

Well when I am judged, I will know what to say! That's out my story ended last time. I am sitting here knowing that I must write and have led you all to believe that you will have to wait and see...... see what is the question, I am pondering and wondering why I wrote that!

Feeling judged has been a very significant aspect of my life, I have judged my self harshally, made bad mistakes, made errors, made decisions that seemed wrong but as I go through this incarnation I know that it was all a part of the plan. Everything is happening in perfect harmony and timing and I am understanding that more and more.

In my 20's my spiritual awareness less me back into the spiritual churches, this time going with out my family, searching this for my own truth. Around this time I started to dream events that happend quite significantly.

I mentioned a dream in my last blog but there was no real evidence, I am now starting to get concrete evidence.

I went on holiday and had a little blue vanity bag which I shoved all my toiletries and jewlery in to return back to the uk from Spain. Someone had bought me a little gold bracelet with blue stones(probably glass but looked like saphires). I distinctly remembered packing this bracelet when I left. I unpacked when I returned home and put away my bag in a cupboard in my bedroom. A couple of weeks later I decided to wear the bracelet and went to my jewlery box only to discover it wasn't there and remembered I had had it in my vanity bag so got it out of the cupboard to check I had emptied it properly. Had a good look and definately not there. Two nights later I dreamt that I got up and looked in my vanity bag and the bracelet was in there. When I awoke I remembered the dream go up and got out the vanity bag and yes you guessed it there it was! Now if this happended just the once I would say it was conincidence or an incident of sleepwalking but this happens regularly still to me, I think it must be a finding angel that helps me or a mischevious little spirit friend. I have lived in several houses since then so it is related to me not the place I live in. These dreams have expanded into real spiritual situations the hunt for missing children etc.

OK let me be honest and tell you that I used to be a girl in blue (police woman)but my positive energy hopefully helped change things a bit. I truely wanted to help people but found there was good and bad aspects to the job and left after 6 years. One night a girl was missing from home, the absolute hilarious thing was I found her within an hour of being told. She was in a cellar in a block of flats asleep. Everyone questioned how I had found her but the truth is I knew where to go, my instinct and intuition and spiritual help led me straight to her, everyone was amazed and delighted that she was found. Fortunately this was a silly little family arguement and I was happy for her to be returning home unlike many other children that never made it back home for one reason and another(That's another story).

So finding things is rather a thing I do rather than I thing I don't, I do have a habit of sensing death, knowing something will happen and knowing exactly where to go in a strange place. Yes maybe I have been before, or maybe I am led.

People around this time became my saviours, I love people, everyone seriously, I always look for the good and people say I am too generous, too forgiving and too gracious in how people behave and things they do. Not wrong as far as I can see, that has got to be right surely....... Tell me if you think I am a big old softie. I always have given people the benefit of the doubt and always trust until proved otherwise and even then I can forgive....Never forget though which I would like to get better at because I think it would be sometimes a good thing to forget to offer true forgiveness, but that is the nature of it.

I feel like I am waffling in this bit of my story, maybe earlier childhood is easier to recall than the bit in the middle.

I was asked to read tarott cards to raise funds for a local charity and bang/.... that was it, and even though I hate to make money from this....my spirit friends always keep pushing me in the direction of giving readings.....me today....I just want to practice giving my therapies and teaching and giving awareness, but them they want me to read, opportunity after opportunity presents itself to me, tarrot, runes, t leaves, psychometry, flower reading, giving mediumship etc. I have these gifts but I much prefer to help on a counselling and theraputic level really. Anyway some how or other I have struck a balance of sorts and try to encompass all of these things into my life. There I go again judging why I do things and have gone full circle to the beginning of my post. I think I need to meditate on this thought before I either bore you all or continue with my story.

Thankou all for listening and I look forward to hearing some of your stories soon.
Love and Light.
Kite