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This is something I wrote a few months ago, I don't really remember under what circumstances, but it helped me to calm down:

There is no everything.
There is no one thing, one piece.
One little unanswered question that will reveal the nature of the workings of everything.
Because there is no everything.
Everything is everything,
nothing is everything
everything is nothing
nothing is nothing

nothing is everything is everything is nothing.

its all the same. There is only the removal of questions.
the acceptance of reality.
Only once accepted can it be changed as it needs be.
if I fear my reality, if I hate my reality, if I tell myself I am trapped by my reality.
Then I am.

I realize that things feel this way at times. But when I succumb to those feelings as ways of thinking, I become them, I live them.
I must not see them as way of thinking.
These are emotions, fears. Fear is only as powerful as I let it be. Emotions are only as permanent as I want them to be.

I am my own fears.
I have no fear until I will fear to exist.
I have nothing until I will it to exist.
if I am feeling doubt, I willed it to exist.
If I am afraid, it is because either I want to be, or I am not putting forth enough effort to want to be someway else.

Reality is a subjective experience.
experience is all that matters.
I must take in all the experience my brain can tolerate, out of every possible moment in every possible scenario, in every waking second.
I must continue to excel and improve and evolve beyond my current understanding of myself.
of reality
of everything.

I must persist in my efforts.
despite continual exhaustion, they are all that matter.
Without them, or a lack of them, I would have no center to focus on, be it negative or positive. I would have no existence.