Ascension

I wrote this for my myspace blog, which is a different crowd. I know basically everyone here is down with whats coming. I feel there is sharable stuff in here, so I thought I would share :)

This is hard to write about. I feel compelled to though because I dont know what tommorow will be like, who I will be, if I will even write anymore. People are still in mass doubt, its understandable. Im afraid for everyone, knowing what Ive gone through to arrive where I am at, no destination. Maybe it will be easier for you. Thats what Ive read, it resonates with me, that those who have gone before actually make the path a little wider, easier to transverse. So here it is.....

Medicalish.....

Ive written about my medical whatevers over this last year. Ive collapsed twice. The first time (on my birthday ) I thought I had an aneurysm because something in my head popped, I tasted blood in the back of my mouth and my body shut down completely as I collapsed. An hour later I was in the fetal position on the couch, with every organ in my body feeling like it had clenched, trying to figure out why I was on the couch. Then it happened on Christmas. This time I gave into it. I ended up lying on my neighbors bed convulsing and shivering as my memory kept resetting, over and over. I would flash and be there convulsing and I would get scared to death all over again because I would forget how I got there. I accepted death, brain damage, whatever it was within the first hour, but I kept forgetting and having to live it all over again. Something happened though, as I began to tell myself not to worry, not to worry, this hollow feeling became apparent right around my heart center. I shifted my conciousness to that point and meditated on it. A new memory surfaced. My mind was continually shutting down and resetting itself, I was still convulsing but now completely calm. I floated above it and had no more fear. The week after that, everthing that came into my mind I said that I release it to the source and mass layers of ego attachment melted away. I was reborn.

Energyisms...

Ill just deal with the most freaky. I was meditating one evening and I could feel my crown chakra open fully, or I opened it, its hard to tell sometimes...anyway..something flew in my head. Literally flew in my head. I felt it reside as a pressure in the back of my head right above my neck. Ive had a few experiences with taking on spirits but never something all up in my shit like that. It scared me. The thing I really disliked about taking on spirits is it makes you moody as hell and they try to influence you. I just felt like having to deal with my own shit as well as being an empath ( which everyone is ) was enough. A few months previous to this I was laying on my side, trying to go to sleep and I felt something fly into my spine. This was easier to identify because of the nature of the reaction, I was having a pranic awakening ( look it up ). These are syptoms of ascension. Getting hot for no reason. Shivering. Having old shit come up out of nowhere. Agitation. I went through a period where I would wake up around 6am. I would literally feel like I was about to burst out of my skin, like my energy self was too big for the body. Extremely uncomfortable. I would lay there for hours tossing and turning.

Do you fell like you are going to die?

Guess what, its going around ( and you're right ).

Lately....

The other night I was meditating. Filling my little apartment building up with grail energy when my whole perspective shifted to my femine side (left side). It was very strange because I physically felt like half a person. Then this firey energy started to pour into the top of my head and make its way through the masculine side of my body. This happened a few times that night. Last night the same thing happened down the exact center of me. I woke up today and went to the little rock store that I love so much. Sat outside and chilled all day and had some great conversations. Ate pitas with red pepper garlic hummus, sprouts, tomatoes, avacados, marinated artichoke salad, greak salad, and grape leaf wraps for dinner ( Im salivating just typing about it ). It was a wonderful day.

There was only one thing missing, I wasnt there.

Namaste