Scared and Confused- Please Help

Hi there everyone

I have been increasingly getting vivid memories of past 'abuses' which have been eating away at me for some time. I try to release/heal it but it just always seems to come back.
My main fear is that I am too 'weak' somehow, and that if certain of those people were to hurt me in some way again I wouldnl't be able to say anything or stand up. I often have not in the past and felt ashamed as a result- yet i was petrified and felt scared to say anything.

I am confused about what the difference is between taking action, and being detached in taking action? In a split second moment of hurt do you just let it go by? I am so conditioned to the idea that I am meant to take action and stand up and if I don't I am somehow weak? In a channelling session St Germain asked me why is it I need to go and 'make them understand' or 'fight them in some way'. If I do that I give my power away to them. Instead he said do what God does, 'let them do what they want'. Identify and vibrate to the focus that you desire, and gradually your reality will change such that you will 'pass them by the street, and it is as if you do not know them'. In my heart I resonate so well with what St Germain is saying. But yet in that split second of bullying how can I not 'promptly' do something about it? Especially if its something that I can't just 'ignore' in some way.

I'm confused...please help me get my head round this.

Kind regards

Enchantress