What is real or just a dream?

Tuesday, March 25, 2008
What is real or just a dream?
Current mood: moody
Category: Life

I am super sad right now. I know it is time to change, it is inevitable, yet I didn’t expect things to go this way.

Everything seems to be so f** up...

Yes, well... a lifetime has come and gone... and change is inevitable... yet it is hurting.

I wish I could just hide under a rock while the storm passes by... but of course, that is something I cannot do.

I think that what is killing me is that I don’t know what I want.

Maybe I should want to find a rich man to just buy me out. Yes. A hideously rich man so I could just be a stay at home mom, and spend his money in silly crap.

Hahaha. Yeah, that would be fun.

I’m waiting for tonight... then waiting for tomorrow...

Hahaha. And to think that a year ago I was so happy in love. Looking forward to a lot of exciting things. They all just vanished.

Oh well. So they tore down my castle... time to build a new one... as soon as I gather the strength, courage and vitality.

Now... I just need to sit still.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?

I’m getting old and I need something to rely on....

I’m getting oh so very tired and I need somewhere to begin...

Somewhere to begin... all over again... for the end can only be the beginning... right?

With philosophical tears,

Goddess Divine -but on very special occasions.

Currently listening :
Somewhere Only We Know
By Keane
Release date: 19 April, 2004