I am a Goddess

Made you look, haha. Seriously, this blog entry is about creation or more specifically about being a creator. It is about Wishes also, so I discovered. Perhaps my greatest lesson as an Earth-ling is simply living in the Light while existing in the third dimension.

I have spent most of my 44 Earth-years living in self-doubt and especially being afraid of who I truly AM. As some of my friends here are aware, since I joined Light Workers with my first blog about my being in the higher realms, and the teacher there telling everyone there (in my part of the Higher Realms) - that I was to be sent to Earth to be the “Rosary Gate”, my self-confidence (or self-knowledge) has increased by leaps and bounds. Thank you to everyone here at Light Workers who has supported me. 

About two to three months ago, I had a very interesting and realistic “dream” which had several elements, of which I will share here. Please feel free to add anything that you intuit about this dream, as it seems that symbols and perhaps a “past life” were involved, and I welcome constructive thoughts about such. 

In the "dream" I was some sort of lady living in a huge house, as far as I can remember, and I was lonely. I was bored also, but I soon realised that I could create things from thoughts. I had a cat with me, and she was my “familiar” or constant companion, and the cat was not lonely or bored, but rather she enjoyed my company. A white frill-necked lizard suddenly materialised. I looked at it with awe or respect but I did not feel fully connected to it. Around me were “ideas” and somehow I was manifesting or creating happenings from these ideas. I saw pictures also and I touched a picture of a butter-fly. The picture came alive and a beautiful butterfly flew around me. I thought “wow, I can create things just by touch”. I am not completey sure why, but the cat did not like the white frill-necked lizard. The dream ended soon after that. 

When I was “awake” I thought about this experience and I looked up the spiritual significance of the white frill-necked lizard. The lizard is connected in some ideologies with creation. The “medicine” of the lizard is about letting go or surrendering to the “flow” and listening to one’s inner voice. Lizard remembers the Dream-time and “lets go” literally when “he” loses his tail when cornered. Lizard reminds us of our Inner Dream and what we have set out to achieve. The Cat’s medicine is about independence and drive for achieving what one wants. Cat can live in two different dimensions. 

In this dream episode I had, there was a “schism” or a gap between the Cat and the White Lizard. If the Cat symbolises mystery and independence and was wary of the Lizard, then to me that means the lady or I in the “dream” was / is somewhat independent and creative, yet not yet fully cognisant (or aware) of her utmost vision (her inner dream or inner voice). 

The “dream” also had some other elements in it, being someone else was around in the house but he was occupied with things and was not paying attention to me. Also, I was confined to the house. At least I felt that I was confined to the house, because I could look out of the window and see my “sisters” outside looking up at me, and wishing for me to join them. My “parents” were also outside the house but standing away from my “sisters”. For some reason I didn’t want my parents to be there, and I thought that I would drop something out of the window to send them on the their way, so I picked up something that was like a brick and knowing that it wouldn’t hurt them, I tossed it out of the window. I watched it fall in a straight line as though it would hit them on the head, and as it fell, they disappeared. My sisters looked toward the window where I was standing and motioned or waved to me to come down from the house, but I didn’t and the dream suddenly ended. 

My own intuition is that this experience could have been a mixture or a blend of a memory of (or astral travel to) a “time” when I did actually create things, and an experience I had in form when I was training to do something or training for something, hence I was in the house where I probably chose to be away from my family. I actually think that the someone else in the house was not really there at the time of the experience, but was just a wish of mine. I am not sure though. I know that I wished for Life to arise and it did in the form of small creatures, such as the Lizard, and butterflies. 

Butter-flies are said to represent the Soul. Maybe all the animals in this dream were somehow aspects or parts of my whole “Self” as well as “real animals”. Are we dreaming or are we the dream? I think that I am sometimes in a “waking dream”. I think that when I am asleep and I “dream” I am in a “sleeping dream” and when I live in the 3-D world and operate from the ego-mind, I am in a “waking dream”. But sometimes, glimpses and layers of the Truth filter through into my Dream State. As I re-connect with my super-conscious state or with the Divine Spark that I really am, through the illusions of 3-D being peeled away through my wish to do so, I grow spiritually and come to know who we truly are. 

The Cat (the Self who thinks she is independent) running away from the Lizard (the creator of infinite possibilities) is likely a true reflection of my 3-D life, because I have spent so much of my human time during this incarnation, at least, feeling a great lack of self-worth and self-confidence, only to lately have been re-connecting to my Higher Self and Over Soul. I wish that as I connect more and more to my Over Soul that the Cat will be-friend the Lizard, and that all of us will live and co-create together in Peace.

Be as One, 

Namaste 

~ Star Wise ~

Picture kindly provided by Samantha King