You ARE the Gift
***Note: At this point, I never claim to know where my messages come from other than a place of Love. I will share here though...This was a day when I was "done' with people and relationships. As many of us know here, our opening up and awakening results in relationships, mostly the closest ones crumbling around us. So I was crying and done with people. It hurt too much...no one understood me, and I seemed to just piss people off by being me...you know, people who have no idea what we are talking about or what it's like to be just one big "walking feeling."
So as I sat there asking my angels, anyone to explain to me why this was all happening...why do I make people so angry without trying. Suddenly I heard, "I made people so angry they killed me." I laughed because "the voice" laughed as it said it. Of course instantly, and due to my connection to him, I thought, "Yeshi? (Jesus) Is that you?"
Long story over...I sat there listening as the below just flowed in my head. I felt so much better. Completely healed. Not really knowing who it was, but that was ok...I felt better and that was all that mattered. I got in the shower and the message played over and over again like a broken record. So I knew this was telling me I MUST write it down. Hair in towel, I sat at puter and never lost a word. What was different this time was the nudge to share...so I did at my online group of back then.
I had been "conversing" with "my angels' for years...but never shared with anyone. This was the first time actually that a whole message downloaded without me being a part of the conversatioin. (many followed this way later and still do.) After the first nudge to share a message...I now know the diff between what is for me? And what is for Us. (Thanks for listening...this one will always be very special to me...so I had to share how it Arrived.) :-)
You have heard "he/she is gifted." You have heard, "she/he has many gifts." You have all forgotten You ARE the gift. So be all that You are. Hold nothing back. Be not ashamed of any emotion or feeling. Many have trouble with anger. Many have trouble with fear. Many have trouble allowing themselves anything other than love. But they do not see, this kind of "love?" Only "resembles" love. True love encompasses all. True love allows for all.
Do not withdraw when some decide they do not like the gift that You are, because you have expressed something other than love and light. Do not stop giving of yourself because some are not happy with what is inside the box that is You. You are not the fancy ribbon. You are not the floral paper. You are not the shiny box. You, the gift, is what is inside. Do not be afraid to show what is inside. How many times have You given a gift that was returned for "something better." Is your gift not still a gift? How many times has your gift been the wrong size? Is it not still a gift?
How many times has your gift been not liked, found to not be useful, not appreciated etc. Does this say what You gave was indeed not a gift after all? No. It says...not everyone will find your gift good enough, the right fit, likeable, useful or appreciated.
As it is with the gift that is You. Not everyone will unwrap all the fancy goodies around You and be happy with what they have found inside. Let this not discourage You from still being the gift that You are. There will be many who will appreciate and love all that You are ESPECIALLY now that You have been opened and no longer hiding inside all the fancy ribbons and bows. Those who can appreciate the gift once it has been unwrapped? Are those, who my friend, are a Gift to You. Cherish those, and cherish yourself for not always needing to be wrapped up in "fancy trimmings."
You are enough as You are and You will always...ALWAYS find others who will love, appreciate and thank God for the day You were given to them. Even, and especially when, someone else has decided, they will wait for something better. There is nothing better...than an already "opened gift."
~September 30, 2005