My Star Family, Twin Flame...Somebody Was Missing Me Last Night... :-(

First of all, this is my first ever (sound the trumpets..."da da da daaaaaaaaaa") movie...so...no laughing.

I don't think I have shared here yet how important songs are to me as far as mediumship. When doing mediumship readings, which I haven't for quite some time, but do hope to one day maybe offer here...alot of times I get songs...songs that are either right off the bat very meaningful to the person I am reading for, or there is a message that really, REALLY hits home and it then becomes a very meaningful song from that day on.  I had come to the conclusion, that I get songs because readings don't come easy to me.  One "meaningful" word at a time, some short phrases, and if I am really deep into meditation, I do get whole sentences and/or pictures.  So, loved ones go through the file of my brain (I knew being a music lover all of my life might pay off someday, someway) and grab a song that says so much.

Now, I also wake up during the night with a song in my head now and then, (my journal has MANY recorded!) and write it down so I don't forget.  Many, MANY...9 times out of 10, I don't really know the lyrics.  I am an "It has a good beat and you can dance to it" sort of chick.  My sis used to always make fun of me when I would LOVE a song, but not really know the fine deets about what it is about.

What has been amazing this past year...is they are love songs.  Songs that touched my heart so deeply.  Songs coming from someone who loves me more than any love I have ever felt here.  (sorry hub...but it's true...)  When I google the lyrics, my heart first melts, I wonder who on earth...then realize...not on earth....who could love me this much.  Alot of times I have the tune, cause I am a music lover or I download it online.  There is a mixture of happiness to be loved so much...but then soon after a deep...very, very deep sense of sadness.  A feeling of being so alone here.  A feeling of "Why did you leave me here...where are you...I wanna go home."

So, this morning when I wrote down the line I was hearing...I thought, "Oh, why am I hearing that song?  I better look up the English lyrics," cause while I have always loved it, I have no idea what they are saying.  (Not too cool, as I am Mexican...)  I got my cd, put it on, then read the English lyrics as it played.  I cried...I felt the deep love...in every cell of my body...followed by sadness...and asked in my head..."Why do you do this to me?  It hurts too much."  Then...like the other times...I listen one more time maybe, IF I can, and turn it off because I am HERE.  I MUST LIVE HERE.  I CAN'T FEEL THIS LOVE RIGHT NOW. 

I say in my mind, "I love you too...and I miss you so much"...then I do my best to move on...knowing I chose to be here...have not yet done what I came to do...and actually by this time...feel so safe...that "someone" or "many" are watching, loving and missing me...and looking forward to the day I go back Home.

To all the Starseeds...to all those who know their Twin Flame is not on this Earth at this time...I dedicate my very first (no laughing) video to you too...I know it will be hard to read the lyrics and watch the movie at the same time, so maybe, just listen and read first like I did...

We are deeply, deeply loved...and so missed.

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