People draining my energy...

Since school, I’ve been experiencing a strange feeling that comes over me in the presence of certain people. Actually, they don’t even have to be near, it’s enough that they’re on the phone to me. I don’t know if I can explain the feeling I get exactly, but here goes...

I get a warm sensation that begins in my head and spreads downwards. When it gets to about my shoulders/chest, I start feeling like I’m beginning to get goose bumps all over me. A few seconds later, my head gets very airy and faint, and I start to feel drained.

I usually have to slow down, sit down or calm down at this point, because it feels like I don’t have the adequate energy to stay upright and I might fall down. The funny thing is that I actually enjoy the feeling... like I’m sinking or swimming in a warm fuzzy sensation; I feel comfortable and cuddly. In my mind, though, I feel like the whole ‘good’ feeling is a ploy to lull me into a false sense of security, opening me up for an attack of some sort while I’m vulnerable.

I’ve tried to determine what sort of person makes me feel this way. The first person who I came across was my school librarian – which nobody liked very much – and so I thought the whole thing might be linked to negative day-to-day characters, especially since it ALWAYS happens with the same people. But then, when people I liked began manifesting this experience within me, I wasn’t so sure.

It happened again a few minutes ago, when our office assistant came around delivering some papers, so I thought I’d create this post and see if this has happened to anyone else and if anyone knows what it means.

In love and light... I-A-NA : )