Wierd Going's On

Ok, so i've moved into a new place, sharing with a woman, and some wierd stuff is going down...

Firstly, she comes across as really nice and happy and giving. But underlying that is something else. In the two weeks i've been there, we've had three run-ins.

The last one was the other night, when i run into her in the kitchen. She's gone off and gotten stoned, and i'm telling her this story about how i got pulled over by the cops and even thru i'd been drinking( not a lot) i knew i'd be ok.

I said that, sometimes i just know i'm ok, and i seem to have control over my reality. This really pissed her off, and she starts raving on about how life will show me the opposite, that i'm wrong, and that i'm egotistical for saying such a thing.

I tell her that is her perspective, and we're all different, and she starts up on how i'm preaching and blah blah blah. My power centre goes all sickly, and i just put up my arms, walk out, and say whatever.

She does this now and then. It happened friday night previous too. It's like she wants an argument, and baits me. I really don't like it.

The other thing is that after these episodes happen, it's like she's inside my head, arguing with me. I find part of my consciousness caught up in this bullshit imaginary conversation with her. Thing is, i don't want it. I keep telling her, inside my mind, to shut up, because i'm not interested. It's wierd, bizarre, and it makes me feel crappy.

I continually let it go, over and over.

I've told her i'm moving out. I really don't feel comfortable living with her. She is into crystals and new age stuff and is a kineisiology therapist. yet she seems really screwed up, like there is a dark side of her that is waiting for the chance to bang out at anybody and everyone.

Since i've been there, shes told me her life story - how she's been raped, how her mum never took care of her, and so on. She tends to dominate the conversations, i listen, and take note. She can be really giving, ie has made me dinner, giving me remedies, we talk about deep stuff... yet she'll flip at the drop of a hat, and start attacking me. Funny thing is it's happened everytime she's been stoned.

At the moment, i've gone away for the weekend, to the beach, which is where i want to be. I don't know what to do, apart from avoid the situation. I feel ill thinking about it, heaps of shame and guilt comes up. I continually clear it, and remind myself i'm ok.

I don't get it, try not to take it personally, but it seems she's a real piece of work.

Anyhow... i've got to find a new place to live. I've just moved up here for university, which is going well. I want to find a place on the coast, with good quality flatmates that i get along with. Wish me luck!