My Dying tonight.

During a healing/bodywork session tonight:

I think I experienced my death.

In one sense, It felt like a real death, the moment before passage.
Struggling to breathe, knowing it would be over soon
and breathing would be forever easy.

Quinn was there to help me.
Standing over the bed probably six feet tall.
A 24 year old mop of dirty blonde hair.
Holding my hand, talking to me, his auntie
reassuringly.

Quinn is only 4 now.

Did I experience some real event in the future?
Perhaps I did not die. Perhaps I was only
in the hospital.

Or was it a metaphorical death, the letting go
of things and parts of myself that not longer
serve me.

I believe this is true, since I am going through
mega changes right now, a big shift. I hurts.

Also, Isn't it interesting that this comes so soon after
he "killed" me with the hassock cannon ball a couple
of blogs ago?

I have been doing more reserach on the French
Revolution. Spirit tells me there is a connection to
Lafayette.

When I was at Versailles last time (only twice ever)
I walked the entire perimeter of the "reflecting pool"
(several miles) and the whole time I said "I am healed,
I am whole, I am healthy, I am well" Like a mantra
all the way around the edge in the hot sun.

The lightworker said these words to me to too during the session.
That was curious also.

I am so tired. I have a really bad headache from the rain storm
coming through. I wanted to record this though, in some form.

there is more to write, about the "green man" who appeared in
the sun in a vision and the table with the goblets.

I will write more later.

Blessed be this death of mine.

-S