Birthrite

As I walked home today I saw myself from above, I wondered why I looked so sad and felt so drained. I thought about the limitless amounts of energy available to us and about how I don't always use it because, even though it is my birth rite, I feel unworthy of it and so I don't take it.
I said to myself. "No, unacceptable." and I looked up at the sky and willed large amounts of energy into myself from the universe. After a moment I felt a lot better and realized my birth rite and opened my self up more to the universe. I felt an energetic pressure around my crown chakra and enjoyed the sensations.

I think I shall have to practice this often.

I also saw a large figure hovering over me. At first it was sitting in a tree. It was the size of a building. It looked like an angel. Then I just saw a large face. I was listening to an inspirational Enigma song and as I saw the face they lyrics said,

"Look into the mirror of your soul
Love and hate are one in all
Sacrifice turns to revenge and believe me
You'll see the face who'll say:
I love you... I'll kill you...
But I'll love you forever"

I felt as though this being in front of me was my higher self or the god head. I can see how me not being open in the past prevented me from looking up during my daily life before. I felt on some level unworthy of receiving what this being offered me. I often wondered why I didn't look up more often.

I can also see how death is impersonal and comes to us when we are ready to move on, yet also the same force that separates body from spirit loves us eternally.