Thoughts & Experiences - March 4, 2008 (I make mistakes)

I wrote the following blog because I want people to know that I make mistakes, we all make mistakes and there is nothing wrong with that. For some reason or another we create this idea that we cannot be the light and love and still make mistakes. Who ever said that? Jesus, Buddha, Yogananda never said this, did they? It seems that we do this so that we can keep the light and love distant from us! We then say 'I am nothing like Jesus, Buddha and Yogananda so how can I be the light and love. They never made mistakes they were perfect and I am not!' This would pain them to hear because it is not true, we are all one and we are all light and love no matter what! We read a book that moves us but quickly say that we cannot feel what the author has written because they are special and we are not! Why? Sorry if this does not come across coherent, it is much easier to talk about then put into words, I am also deeply perplexed by this.

'I make mistakes'!

Just recently I have been pondering the past, yes the past! As much as I live in the moment, in the NOW I must admit that I am pulled back into the past at times. Some of my thoughts of the past for some reason or another do focus on the mistakes I have made or the times when I acted in a less then favorable manner! It is hard not to feel soreness even sadness but I have come to understand the importance of just letting go, taking the moments and sealing them away in a vault. I have begun the delicate process of removing most of these moments from my thoughts, not an easy process, talk is cheap! When times do get tough I like to use a few words that really help me with this process, ‘how can I move forward if I am stuck in reverse’? Imagine driving a car and wanting to move forward but having the transmission in reverse. If our thoughts are stuck in the past we cannot move forward, we are not in the moment! If you think about water, does water move backwards when it is going down stream? It may become blocked or even stuck but it will eventually break past that blockage, always moving forward! For me remaining in the moment is one part of the healing process and the other I believe is to in fact learn from them, yes learn from the mistakes. Of course this is not the same as dwelling on them it is taking from the mistakes and situations and building upon them. Lessons are learned from many situations, good, bad or neither!

I myself have and continue to make mistakes and it seems to be a part of my magical journey, oh joy oh bliss! Mistakes are no doubt a part of our journey and unfortunately it seems that we will encounter them as we encounter every other situation, because it is all a part of our life process. It all comes down to lifting our chins, holding our heads high and pushing on, moving forward! I will admit that I do hold my head high and know deep down that I am and will always be the light because I am part of the Loving vibration that is God! I have taken my mistakes and made them into stepping stones which allow me to continue on my path. I am not proud of my mistakes but I will not allow them to hold me down. I do wish that I had never made mistakes and of course I wish that I could avoid any further mistakes but I know this is not possible so I will do my best in dealing with any situation that arises. I now realize and understand in the moment (NOW) when I have made a mistake or a wrong decision. This gives me enough time in the moment to rectify the situation or to lead it into a better direction. I was always told that realizing a mistake immediately was the same as not making the mistake, because you are able to deal with it instantly which means the mistake never happened! Strive to take the mistakes and turn them into positive moments, happy moments, with a positive resolution. Our thoughts can play many tricks on us but please do not allow them to lead you into more mistakes, into further anguish and despair. Like I said mistakes are no doubt a part of the journey and what we do with the situation will determine the direction of our paths.

Do not feel as if the journey must be ‘perfect’ to arrive at the destination because the beauty of destination is the experiences we gain from the journey. There is nothing more blissful then acknowledging every situation with peace and love in our hearts. My life, this life will be filled with many opportunities, and I will seize all of them for I know they are part of me. We are and will always be the light and love!

Namaste, Peace and Love!