Thoughts on a Free State of Mind

A FREE State of Mind
What is the free State of Mind?
The free state of mind is not a philosophy.
The free state of mind is not a feeling.
The free state of mind cannot be defined with direct language.
Very much like light, the free state of mind can only be understood, it can only be known.
Light is understood but cannot be described in words; it is something that is understood by many, and the only description of light is light itself.
The same is with the free state of mind, as it cannot be positively described, and it can only be known.

The free state of mind is a consciousness. The free state of mind is formless, but encompasses all. The free state of mind is alive. The free state of mind is a consciousness where love is cultivated and sustained in an eternal and infinite capacity.

The free state of mind cannot readily be described, but can be expressed by the participant with the words “I know.”

As light is a condition where there is no darkness, the free state of mind is a consciousness in which there is no fear. Freedom from fear is true divine freedom.

There is nothing one can do in order to reach the free state of mind, as the free state of mind is not a state of doing, but it is a state of being.

My advice to you out of my own love is to challenge your fears. Attack them aggressively and you will ultimately find that your efforts are in a sense futile as you cannot readily attack your fears; the biggest secret is that they are only illusions. They exist on other dimensions of your being, but still they affect your current consciousness; you must first confront them in order to realize that they are not real or necessary in any context in your current reality.

I am referring to the ultimate fear and illusion: the fear of realizing your true self. Consider this: many of us live in fear of being our true selves. We fear what other people would think about us; we package parts ourselves within boxes and store them somewhere in the back of our consciousness.
What I am communicating may sound strange or even bizarre. I urge you to listen to my words for I am offering you what I have found to be one of the keys to the ultimate source of wealth which is the treasure contained within you. The message I offer is not new; it has been passed on through the ages in allegories. The message is subtle, but somewhere within our consciousness, it screams “I am the truth.” The message can be found within the popular story of the ugly duckling, where a duck that is not quite like the other ducks forsakes his own uniqueness in hopes of trying to be just like the other ducks. The duck’s life is agony, turmoil and loneliness. Why? Because he is rejected: by the other ducks, his mother, and most importantly by himself. One day he realizes that he is the most beautiful of all of the ducks, and the other ducks now revere his astounding beauty. It turns out that the ugly duck was not a duck at all, but was in fact a swan all of the time; it follows that the duck enjoyed a self sustained sense of happiness for the rest of his days. It was only natural for the duck be unlike the other ducks; he was a swan and therefore he was not a duck. The duck’s greatest source of misery was not the rejection from the other ducks; the pain he felt from this rejection was the pain that his own mind manufactured in response to the information that the other ducks had rejected him. Remember that all which we experience is within our own minds. The ugly duck only felt pain because he first rejected himself. We only become vulnerable to the pain caused by the perceived rejection of others if we first reject ourselves. Remember this- as this is the first key to a spiritual portal with numerous seals.
What is rejection? In the case when one rejects ones’ own self, rejection is the spiritual act of withholding love from oneself. Love functions as the blood of all creation. Love is the source of life and health for all life no matter how large or how small. The ultimate creator is the ultimate source of all love. When one rejects an aspect of one’s own self, it is the spiritual equivalent of placing an extremely tight rubber band around one’s finger, I personally know very much about this subject, as this was a “game” I experimented much with when I was a small child. I would tie a rubber band tightly around one of my fingers and watch in amazement as it turned cold and blue; eventually I would instinctually take the rubber band off of my finger- I somehow sensed that to not do so would be unhealthy. When we reject parts of ourselves, we do the same- we deprive these portions of ourselves of the ever vital love which they need- these parts of us shrivel and cry out for us to love them, and on our deepest levels of existence, we want to, but our fears are often great and we give in to them and continue to starve these portions of ourselves. I am an expert at this process as well; for many years of my life, I deprived parts of myself the essential vital love which they needed out of fear of what others might think of my true self. I craved acceptance and love from others, so in hopes of becoming more “likable,” I tried to meet the standards of other people- this meant that I attempted to change myself; I attempted to be what I thought others would want me to be. The results of my all of my experiments were ultimately some superficial successes- perhaps I would be accepted into some social clique, or whatever; but even when this “I” was “accepted,” I found that I had not attained happiness. I found that after the initial rush I felt from my success, it was quickly replaced with the fear of being rejected, and I would be thrust back into my previous loneliness. As the fear increased, my efforts to be what other might want me to be increased as well; and strangely enough, the people I was trying to impress resented me even more. I never found happiness by trying to please others. I never felt like I was expressing myself. I only delved deeper and deeper into misery. Although I was not completely loyal to myself through these years, I always allowed myself to privately love myself enough to survive internally.
Long story short, while in college, I found myself in a situation where I realized that by trying to please and impress others, and by being afraid to be me, I realized that I had backed myself into a prison. I had no freedom. I couldn’t express myself. I couldn’t venture into the rich gardens which existed within me when I was a child. I wasn’t having fun. This prison had even sucked away my will to live. At one point I came to the conclusion that happiness was impossible. I was depressed. I hated my prison. I very well knew of its existence, and I saw how ugly it was. I saw its bars in the present, in the past, and in my future as well. If this prison was all that I would be able to have, then I didn’t want to live to see the future.
One day, for whatever particular reason when I was 21, I decided to give up on this prison. I rejected it. I decided to rebel. I decided to willingly lose the war I was fighting, you know- the war to have others like me. This war was too tiring, too taxing, too soul crushing. I decided to give up and let myself die in the struggle. I consciously thought this thought- I was committing suicide on my old self. I thought for certain that my quality of life would utterly diminish and my future was utterly uncertain. This was scary. I stepped off of the path of my old life and decided to go off into the wild untamed jungle of my soul- the uncharted territory, the unsafe, the unknown. Strange enough, I could leave the miserable path that I was on. I realized that once I gave up on the prison, the prison gave up on me- the bars disappeared before my eyes. I used to “know” that these bars were natural, that everybody had them, and that they were imposed upon me by “society.” Remember again, that all is within your own mind; what you think is “society” may very well be your own mind… I learned that this society didn’t even exist; one of the premises to my reality was completely imagined. I began to realize the beginnings of a fundamental truth which I previously knew nothing of. Realizing that I was in fact powering and sustaining my own prison, I became curious at how it disappeared in a short period of time as soon as I rejected it- when I rejected it, it rejected me. A new reality formed within its place and I was intrigued, curious and in awe, I stepped deeper into the jungle; it called to me, and like a dog hearing the whistle of his favorite human friend, I ran to greet the call.
How did I rebel? It’s hard to say; I describe it as a combination of a conscious decision to stop caring and to love my true self, the self that I tucked away in some corner, hoping that no one would discover it. I decided to stop hiding. I decided to stop running, to stop fearing being caught. I actively brought myself out into the public and said “here I am, I’m not hiding, and I don’t fear what you will do to me.” To my surprise, no one readily rejected me. At first, I flinched when I began to be myself; I prepared myself for the blows I would receive, but to my utter surprise, they never came. In fact I found that instead of losing all of my friends and becoming an outcast from society as a whole, people began to be drawn to me; people whom I looked up to told me that they looked up to me. This was so strange. I became popular; it was like the whole world fell in love with me. To this day, the same effect is stronger than ever- wherever I go, people are drawn to me as if I were a magnet. I make friends easily, and no one seems to even notice how goofy I am, how clumsy or weird I am. They accept me- the same me who used to try to get acceptance (very unsuccessfully). I had literally completely given up on trying to win this game, but strange enough, by doing so, I simultaneously had won it. To clarify some of what I am talking about, I was always afraid that people would know that I had experience homosexual attractions (after many conversations with many men and women, I have learned that most of the people I know well experience this, I believe that this is one thing that is used to isolate us from each other and to make us think that we are “freaks,” sexuality is not what I am interested in discussing however, I just wanted to say this for the sake of truth and the sake of others who suffer with fear stemming from this), strange enough, I am growing out of such attractions, but they remained a source for most of my insecurities. I was also “black” (I don’t believe in race, but this too is another discussion). I was also “mixed” with white. Because I grew up in a white community and was light skinned and I spoke “white,” and my parents had a thriving business, many blacks I encountered (these encounters were rare) rejected me saying that I “wasn’t black enough,” that I wasn’t real. The whites I grew up around also rejected me because I wasn’t white… A lot of the whites also resented me because of my family’s monetary affluence. I wasn’t accepted by anyone it seemed in those days; I had always thought that there was something “wrong” with me, I just didn’t know what it was.
Again to make a long story short, I told you these personal things to give an example of my own sources of insecurities which I used to try to hide. I decided to embrace my complete self during my rebellion. I no longer tried to hide these things about myself, and I fell in love with myself. In response, the world fell in love with me. Remember that love begets love; to be loved by others, you must first be brave enough to love yourself. If you are in a prison which is formed by fear of rejection from others, remember that the prison is not formed or sustained by the others whose opinions you fear, but it is formed and sustained completely within your mind. This is the first important lesson I have learned regarding the attainment of happiness. The supreme creator has structured this world in a fashion where love breeds and manifests love. Love is not an object, love is not a verb, love is just love. Love is a form of energy. I cannot explain it, but I know it very well. Be brave and plant seeds of love within your soul; watch them grow and reap their divine fruits of everlasting joy. Experiment and treat your love as it were a garden. Plant seeds of love and feed them. Watch them grow, and eat their fruits. Experiment, and see what happens when you share your love with others- the results are truly amazing. Remember that the spiritual world dominated the physical world you experience, which is at best, believe it or not, a sum of your beliefs- it’s like a hologram which is reflection of your own mind. This is something I know from my own very personal experience. Love is the first source of all wealth. Think of light, it is the first source of all nourishment on the planet. The fruits that we eat are formed using the light energy from the sun, although we can eat the fruit. If you are rich in love, you will be rich in all aspects. Remember this, as it is one of the keys.
Fear is the opposite of love. Fear prevents one from loving to one’s fullest capacity. The free state of mind is the reality or consciousness you experience when you cleanse your entire spiritual body of all fear. Jesus often urged people to “be not afraid,” one thing I have realized about Jesus is that he really knew what he was talking about. Be not afraid: so simple, but so true. He wasn’t addressing fears which come from things which are external to you, he was addressing the fears within, as all fears are originated and manifested within your being. This world is made up of illusions which seem real. These illusions cause you to experience different states of consciousness which enable you to learn. The ancient yogis of India termed the physical manifestation as maya, or the illusion. The physical world is maya. It seems real, and it is in many ways, but it is not solid as it may appear, it is all made of light, and most importantly, it is all in your mind. Love is real. If you want to grab onto something that is real, begin to love. If you don’t know what to love, simple, just love anything. Love your finger, your cat, a snowflake, whatever. Love is real and it transcends this dream which is maya; it is your first method of connecting with that which is supreme reality. Remember, the supreme creator loves you and your consciousness is a part of your consciousness. The fact that you exist is evidence of your divine origins. I cannot tell you what the free state of mind is, because to get there, you must journey by yourself in order to open the mystical seals which will open up the cosmic portals which lead to your higher self, and the free state of mind. Love begets love, god is good, and I wish you nothing but peace, joy, and love on your spiritual journey. We are all one within the supreme creator as we journey together. And so it is.