40 My Spiritual Life

The way I was born in Zurich, Switzerland was; that really I did not want to come out of my mother’s womb. Just before my birth, I turned the other way round and for the doctor a natural way was not possible. So I was taken out by force with a caesarian cut.

My mother told me that I was crying all the time in my first years on this Earth. As a child, I felt that the adults do not understand children and I promised to myself that I would always remember that fact and stand up for the children, when I would be an adult myself.

Something happened (I guess that it was a fall on my head) and I changed my personality. I remember to be a very extrovert child and after that event I became almost mute. The school was a torture for me. Only rarely I was interested in what the teachers had to say. My world was different than that of other children, I related to only few.

Alone or with my two younger brothers I was busy discovering the beauty of nature and build houses in the woods. My best time I passed in the Swiss Alps during the holidays. Later on I had to learn some occupation and I choose to study civil engineering. After 3 years I was to much sad about how I contributed to ruin the landscape with new roads. The next year I business studies and afterwards found a job in the bank.

All this I did was only to “Do Something”; really I did not feel at home on this planet at All! I continued vegetating till the age of 36; the year 1991. This is the year when I broke up with my girlfriend and desperately needed help.

In that year I changed my view about the world drastically. If I wanted a natural relationship with a female I had to change. Where to start? My solution was to call a psychologist and start talking for the first time about my private “stuff”. Only two month ago I discovered that my Spiritual Guide contacted me at that time and is with me ever since! The same year I found reiki and yoga and an Indian man called Yogiji entered into my life…….

ABOUT MY GUIDE

My guide’s name is Swami Nirmalananda. His Guru was the big Saint of India Sri Ramakrishna Parmahansa of Calcutta. His Gurubhai was another big Saint of India Swami Vivekenanda. He visited Rishikesh at about 1888 and at that time Swami Vivekenanda was with him. Swami Vivekenanda got very sick when they were stying in a cave in Rishikesh.
When Swami Vivekenanda got better and woke up from his Near Death Experience, he had the clear vision of his mission….

Swami Nirmalananda himself was a very humble man. He never spoke up and was always in the Background of his two Big Masters. He was a master himself and when both his Gurus died, he had to come out of himself.

My Spiritual Live Part 2

I also experienced the same as this Great Being, Swami Nirmalananda. My Gurus did not die physically, but I killed them inside! The outer is a reflection of the inner!! I copied exactly the experience of my Guide. When he contacted me the first time in the far 1991, he understood that, if I could undertake the spiritual path, I would be able to release my past karma.

I rebelled to him for long time but finally in 1996, I was ready to come to India! This was it!!
Yogiji knew it! He could make me believe whatever he liked. I felt in love with India and he was the representing of India for me!!

My Guides order was; “Do, whatever Yogiji is telling you to do!!” It was easy in some way for me, because being humble is one of my “Good Qualities”. I surrendered my “Rational Mind” to the “Mind of God” and did a sacrifice. I was in a big dilemma. My “Moral Values” are very High and how could I allow such a corrupt individual to take over?

This question is now answered. I know that like Swami Vivekenanda I have a mission to spread the “Wisdom” I gained in the years staying with Yogiji.

This is another point of looking at my “Indian Adventure”

Now what the future will bring we do not know! We can now create it according to our vision!!!

This is a message for all the Lightworkers!!!

Thank you

George, 17.02.2008 time 10.15 A.M.