Can you help me, PLZ?

Hello there!

I am new here, and I must say I am glad that I found such a wonderful place with so many kind people. I have a question that is bothering me for some time but nobody seems to be able to answer it, so I'm asking you for help. You will certainly know it. When I read a book Earth angels by Doreen Virtue (two years ago), I was very curious what kind of EA I am. It doesn't seem to be important, but I'd like to learn what kind of EA I am anyway. Other people keep on telling me that it's not important, that only thing that matters is knowing that I am an EA and that I can help. Yep, that's right. But knowing what realm I originate from would help me with my self-determination. Then I could finally know that I belong somewhere, because I feel a bit different from the others.

Well, I will tell you how do I look like and how do I behave... please, try to help me untwist the mystery and to gain inner peace. I have a lot in common with Angels. But there's one difference. I love order and being in some kind of Order (I always wanted to be a Jedi or a buddhist monk when I was younger :-) ), but I am also the one who loves to break it. A little intruder :-) Yet, I don't have a mischievous look in my eyes, like e.g. Elemental, I am more serious, but could be very playful and childish, too.

What I know for sure, that I am not a Starperson or a Walk-In. I love rivers and being near it, the nature seems "incomplete" to me when there is no water and no green.

But I don't like bodies of water, I rather sit by smaller lakes. I love moss :-) I thought I am a Merperson, but I don't have red in my hair and don't have green in my eyes. BTW, I like water but then it's strange I am scared to dive and swim in the places where I know I cannot stand on my feet yet. But it keeps me peaceful, I get there and I begin to yawn and want to sleep immediately :-) My real name is Martina, and Doreen said (in the book "Angel medicine", I guess) that everything that includes Mar or Mer, which means Sea in Latin, originates in the "Mer-something" realm. BTW, one fortune-teller and psychic told me that my soul came from Atlantis. And Doreen said that she heard that when was Atlantis destroyed, the people who lived there transformed into Merpeople and swum away. But I don't know if I can be Merperson if I am - in fact - scared of the water. A Merfairy, maybe? Yeah, and i forgot to tell you - my body looks merely like "a pear", but I am not fat. I am blonde, have slightly wavy hair and I dye my hair to be more blonde (like Angels do).

So, can somebody help me? Somehow..? Thank you very, very much. And sorry to bothering you like that. But I am very, very confused...

Anyway, have a nice sunny day! :-)))