Commentary on my Self's Evolution- Francis and Clare

   While, I am a "SPIRITUAL" being, I do not subscribe to any certain Faith or Religion.  I do, however, admire both Clare and Francis for their spiritual essences and their whole-hearted dedication to a higher standard of BEING.  They gave their all, completely and unselfishly for all creatures, human and animal alike. 

THERE ARE NO COINCIDENCES!

My parents came from very different backgrounds.  My Dad from strict southern Baptists in Texas and my Mother from Anglican, Church of England in Suffolk (even though Grannie practised suspiciously Druid rites).  Mother grew up during WW 2 as an only child.  Her parents took in 10 war orphans, all boys, and so off to the Catholic Convent for her.  While there, she became a convert, though not openly until she came of age.  While in the military, stationed in England,  Dad was befriended by an EX-Jesuit priest, then serving as a non-denominational chaplain.  He introduced Dad to the teachings of St Francis of Assisi.  My folks were married in a Catholic Chapel and later, both converted.  HAD I BEEN A MALE CHILD, I would have been Francis....but, as fate would have it, I am female....and so was named for Francis' friend and Sister in faith, Clare of Assisi.

Through the years, I befriended animals, both wild and domestic...and I helped them to feel better when they were sick or injured.  They were not afraid of me and I never thought that communicating through emotions was anything out of the ordinary.  Of my siblings, I was the only one drawn to animals.  Our home was alway full of wonderful animals because of me.  Dad never said much about it, but always made sure I had the means to keep my pets and animal visitors and rural areas to roam in.  I revelled in the outdoors...the TREES, the SKY, STARS, PLANTS and WATERS.  I always "knew" how to heal, both through touch and through herbs.  I never even thought about WHERE the knowledge came from...it was IN ME.  Once I aged, I realized that I wasn't "normal" in the way I felt emotions from both animals and humans.  I never denied what I could sense, see and feel, but I stopped talking about it by the time I was 15 except to a very few and very dear friends. 

I'm not sure what the catalyst was for me, but in the Fall of 2003, I began openly using my gifts to help animals in the Shelter I ran.  When folks came to me and asked if I could help, I did.  I ran the ANimal Services for a Native American tribe.  Many of the good souls came to me for healing for their pets and always did so with great respect, which I treasure still. 

As a family, we've had many drastic life changes over the last 15 years.  When Dad passed on in 93, we got away from the East coast and travelled west, finally settling in the Four Corners area in Colorado. There was an imperative need to go for my soulmate and I.  They all thought we'd lost our minds...they still think so...but we have found our hearts and our souls here.  In 2003, we lost our home and were plagued by financial problems.  I had been targeted by an Indian Witch because I called her for the Black Heart that she was (and is). I had cancer.  My love became ill with pneumonia that almost killed him.  Many terrible things were happening that I attribute to the severity of the negative energy of the Witch.  It took all of our spiritual power to protect ourselves.  We've come past the most treacherous parts of that experience, though we are still recovering.  I now stay home with my animals and actively rescue abandonned pets. 

I have come to the realization that it took that Witch's disasterous black energy and hatred to bring me back to my true heart.  I hadn't seen auras since I was in my 20's.  At 51, I can now see them again, but have to concentrate on it.  As a child, they were just there, and I didn't need charts to interpret what their colors, shapes and continuity or lack thereof, meant.   I saw spiritual beings as a child and now am getting glimpses again.  I feel the changes in the cosmos and my body is suffering the effects of the changes that are taking shape.  I see filmy places where the veil is literally very thin....and I see pictures in my mind of places and people.  My skin goosebumps when there is bad intent around me and my heart warms and grows when there is a gentle soul present.  I am VERY BLESSED to have my wonderful soulmate for the last 22 years, who loves me unconditionally (no matter how strange I get!)! I am happy to finally be able to embrace myself once again.  I am sad that so many years were spent in trying to live up to other's expectations. 

My message to all is PEACE, LOVE and ONENESS.  To Thine Own Self Be True.

NAMASTE, My Brothers and Sisters

Brightest Blessings!

Claryssa 02-14-08