blood, khakis, beer and clorazepam

i'm... so stunned.

i've got a friend who's very troubled in the mental. everyone i know hates him, because he rips people off and treats them terribly. often i am asked why i'm friends with such an asshole.... my reply has been automatic. "despite what he's done to you, he's been the utmost loyal to me these past 6 years."

which is true. he's always been there. anyhow,... he's in a relationship with a girl, they're both abusive to each other. they share the physical abuse. lately when i go over there and they call each other names I flip out and tell them to respect each other at LEAST in my presence.

well last night i was in that situation but he was drunk and attacked me. threw me to the ground. i said some choice words, and stormed out.

when i got home i realized i was bleeding out of my finger and had covered my pants in it and lefta trail from his house to mine.

i feel bad for leaving but at the moment in my head it was either leave or forcefully subdue this guy. im unsure whether or not i made the right decision. had i fought him instead of leaving it wouldnt have changed anything. and i really really would rather avoid having to harm anyone, let alone a friend.