one day at a time

so my insainity spreaks to me
i cant believe i ran all the hot water out of this big o place.the sound of running water......i went to fill the tub and the sound of water put me to sleep like a baby. the drain catch caught the overflow...................wow. i feel so stupid. I woke up crying.................again...
will it be crazy like this everyday? i feel like i am in a twilight zone waking up every morning with my son gone all over again
tomie is so missing cynthia this morning. he read from his NA manual and i said.read it out loud. Then i hugged him.said one day at a time.
but i feel such a mess.
i still havent checked but one email from a friend on here

sometimes.all the time do overwhelmed i be.........
if i can believe in one small merical..........last night.i dreamed....of when my son was born
what a merical that was. i was 119 pounds when my water broke........they said he was to be an incubator baby. I only had 4 hours of labor with jon. He turned around and crawled out of my body on his hands and feet...........he was 6 pounds........when the doc lifted him up.........he slapped the doctor in the face......o how i will never forget that............incubator baby my butt.........no doc slapped his butt hee hee..
good morning my dear son. I love you sooooo much. You were born with the spirit and determination to live.
just one more day.....just make it through today...
tomorrow will take care of itself
i love you all.
thank you for your prayers