Co-existing with Duality.

Current mood: bummed
Category: Life

I had a very strange day today. I feel terribly sad. Perhaps it has to do with the passing of Princess Maddie. I guess it touched me more than I expected... and I know it is silly to feel this way, I know she is more alive than I am right now!!!

At work, I am starting to adapt. The people I am working for didn't really prepare me to grade the students, so I had been making mistakes and the students were complaining... it's all sorted out, but it kind of bothers me... perhaps it is because I have always been asked to excel in everything, since I was very young... I noticed I have issues with criticism... and at times like this, I feel so imperfect... flawed, crooked... it's all in my mind, I know, and I need to shift my consciousness towards positive outcomes...

I guess my challenge is to learn to love and accept myself unconditionally, as I am. That seems to be hard... we are taught in the material world to be strong, tough, perfect, not make any mistakes... and I feel people trampling over me... ugh. I have a lot of problems functioning on the 12:60 frequency right now... even my creativity seems to be blocked...

I really feel spaced out... very emotional... maybe it has to do with the last part of my awakening... I am not sure at this point.

I am kind of in like a rollercoaster... I can jump towards total happiness, and then go down to the depths of doom! mwahahaha!

Something funny happened tho... my mom was watching "Pride and Prejudice". And there was Mr. Darcy. Just seeing that little scene, watching him made me feel so much better!

Thank God it is Tuesday. They broadcast House M.D. tonight on local tv... I love that show... it really helps me get my mind off all the multi-reality that I have been drifting through in the past days...

I wish you all a happy week.

With much love,
Aida.