Need Help here

For the longest time, I've been feeling that my mission here is other, besides raising my son and also feel that my job isn't fullfilling my spiritual need.

May would say that I need to start looking inside and find the answers there, but I already did all that, and at times feel as if I am walking in a different world, I feel as if my world and this world are 2 separate things. It's getting harder and harder for me to deal with this situation. I no longer see humans as I used to, trees and animals are now my family and I feel that they need me as well.

How can you explain the need I have to be somewhere else, near the forest, near trees and animals, near the Moon and stars? Maybe I am delusional, who knows, but I know what I feel.

If anyone here have ever experience this before, please let me know and perhaps offer some advise.